believe and it'll come true..

2010-05-15T21:52:00.002+08:00

upon a fren's request, ive decided 2 update my blog again...

Recent updates:

yup im currently studying in SIM... into my final year..

I will be graduating this year-end.

Im still quite the same throughout,

didnt grew any taller.

Next important update is that... im no longer a big DBSK Fan..

well, i still support them la, but juz not tt much anymore.

My new idol??

SHINEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Been 2 their fan-sign, fan-meet session, as well as the Singapore E awards 2 watch their performances.

My main fave color is still red though im showing signs of liking blue as well~

and yup, i still emo once in a while, but i think tt's juz normal now.

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Moving on, ive got myself a FB account finally after like tons n tons of persuasion.

And I dunno 4 wadever god noes reason, the past few days, ive been having internet stalkers!!

seriously, i dunno y in the blue hell had some random ppl sending me an in-flux of scary 'harassing-like' e-messages...

but im trying 2 grab a hold on myself n try 2 ignore them as much as possible.

Also, ive reached the age where i start attending my fren's wedding banquet O-RE-DI!

like old only!!!!

The thing is 22 doesn't sound old to me, though it doesn't sound tt young as well.

Well, i juz trying 2 kill some time here by updating bullshit stuff about me.

Except for the things mentioned, everything else is held constant.

and yup, i noe im still at the dinosaur age, using blogger.

My sis has been asking me 2 start my tumblr...

yeh yeh, will try it.... some other time.

ciaoz~

2009-10-23T19:39:00.001+08:00

Im a freaking sore loser, period!
competitive streak??
NO!!
ive got no desire to win.
i just hate to lose...
that's all.....

2009-10-07T02:04:00.004+08:00

Bashing on my blog is one way to allow me to vent my frustrations.
Im having multiple thoughts right now...
but the problem is i dunno wad im thinking about.
all i noe is i im thinking about alot of stuff and its making me losing my sleep.
funny how one can keep thinking about stuff without knowing wad izzit...
maybe its just a sign that my brain is feeling tired and sleepy yet m stil awake?
im feeling so moody recently.
Not because something unpleasant happened to me or whatsoever.
I just don't feel any vibe in me...
no life... no nothing...
everyday passes by so smoothly..
my life's normal...
in fact, my life's too normal...
nothing interesting, nothing keeps me work hard for it...
nothing i wanna achieve despite how much i wanna achieve something.
I guess,
that's my life.
Unlike my sister, who's always having a mind of her own,
having fun and living her life interesting..
what am i?

2009-10-05T00:42:00.002+08:00

Have not been updating my blog for quite some time...
feeling abit moody today.
been trying real hard not to allow myself to be convinced by others that im dumb..
but sometimes, the words ppl say can hurt..
and they do hurt real bad.
what seemed like a joke to them is completely invisible to the pain i feel inside.
not that i cant take jokes,
just that i do take people's words seriously.
all the annoying comments people joked about me is making me feel like im really stupid afterall.
i hate this feeling, of being convinced by others that they are right about who i am.
But even if im clumsy, stupid and dumb,
it makes no sense to allow myself to wallow upon other people's ignorance.
im trying real hard to stay smart, not that im really stupid.
But even my sis is always correcting me, it is really irritating.
its not that i don't care,
but some things are just hard to comprehend...
the more you think about it, the sadder u'll feel...
so its better to feign ignorance once in a while;
not knowing the answer is better than being shocked and worrisome at what the truth will be...
and since its hard to comprehend, why bother to try and understand it?
i rather ignore them.
At least, it saves me from feeling disappointed...
...............................................................................................................
exams are round the corner.
Mum says ive been wasting money.
she's been nagging at me none stop!
not coz i spend alot or buy alot of stuff,
but coz i skipped quite a number of lectures and its giving her the heartache.
The heartache of wasting the explosive tution fees for the course.
what to do?
been trying to convince her that even if i were to turn up for lectures,
i cant guarantee that i will learn smth at all;
SO;
what's the point of going in the first place rite?
might as well stay at home, save the effort to leave house,
and save on transport fees as well.
Bad logic, i know...
but it definitely sounds 100% logical to me....
OT assignment 1 results out;
not good.....
could have done better.
hopefully i'll do better nxt tym.
ciaoz~

2009-09-03T21:24:00.003+08:00

i don't wanna grow up........ -period-
if growing up means growing fatter!!!
if growing up means growing older n older...
if growing up means must go and work.
if growing up means must take care of the family..
if growing up means i have to work hard to earn money to survive.
if growing up means i have to get married someday.
if growing up means i hae to leave my parents when im married...
THEN... who wants to grow up afterall?????
tell me abt it!

2009-08-28T02:08:00.007+08:00

Sometimes....
i juz wanna run away from the unreasonable home...
sometimes.....
the ones that disappoint me the most... are the ones that love me the most...
sometimes.....
the ones that make me angry are the ones that i care for the most....
sometimes....
the ones that make me feel real stress out and irritated.... are the ones that i supposedly love the most...
sometimes the ones that make me feel sad are the ones that supposedly care for me the most...
and sometimes....
the warmest place on earth can be the coldest place to be at home...
The ones.....
are non other than... my own family members...
and the shitty feelings happen when...
ur siblings don't show u respect...
ur parents always tell u how bad they are doing... and u cant do anything to help at all.
ur mum always have negative thinking and much as u tell her dont say such things, she stil do...
ur brother who always flare up so easily disregarding u as an elder sibling and there's no way he listens to u...
ur sister keeps making fun of u....
ur home.. needs ur help coz ure the eldest!
u wanna do things but have to always think of ur home 1st..
and becoz ure the eldest... everything good shud be left for the younger ones...
and becoz ure the eldest, ure obliged to help at home..
and becoz ure the eldest, u shud be the nxt breadwinner and dont disturb ur younger siblings who are still schooling...
and becoz ure the eldest, u shud always give in 1st even in arguments...
and becoz ure the eldest, u shudnt worry ur parents...
CRAP ALL THE BEING ELDEST LARH!!!!!!!!
I DONT WANNA BE THE ELDEST!!!!!!!!
but like i can choose.............................. :(

2009-08-25T02:31:00.004+08:00

Does the 'emo' blood runs in every human being?
if not, then why is it that even the most bubbly person can be extremely emo too?
Maybe this is what distinguish us from animals.
Depression, emo, stress....
don't think it occurs to animals...
Haiz.....................................................
This stupid feeling juz come so suddenly like a sneeze.
Reading old letters...
Looking at old photos...
Thinking of the past...
One don't feel lonely because u miss someone or some things...
Rather, beacuse u missed that someone or some things that u feel lonely...
Be positive?
acknowledging what has happened had happened is really difficult.
Sometimes, its so difficult to forget certain things..
Just like how u wanna let go and blame urself 4 not being able to do it after that...
Just like how much u dislike someone who was close to you but u stil care...
Just like how u think its impossible to go back yet you still wanna...
and just like how i said before that i nvr gonna blog again yet reproach myself for still doing it....
Haiz.......
Hate these sucky feelings...
hate what im feeling rite now...
having sleepness nites the past few days...
partly assignments...
partly.... something else....
if only the monsoon period can blow my sorrows away...
might as well blow me far away too~

2009-08-21T18:11:00.004+08:00

Im in a state of exhaustion rite now~
individual assignments and grp projs are all dueing one after another..
this caused me to face my com for so long hours every day...
Hey gal, im sorry i dun have time for u...
must understand tt im on a tight schedule k..
coz even though u ask me to concentrate on my projs n take care..
u sound kinda pissed..
haha... i noe u nvr see me cannot rite??
but im really having a tight schedule rite now...
and its going to coninue till sept...
Lm due nxt wk...
OT and Lm assignment 2 due nxt nxt wk..
Then is Mkt grp proj due last wk of Sept...
realli dun mean to 'avoid' u de...
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A period ofstress rite now..
lack of sleep.
lack of energy.
lack of motivtion to do things.
lack of rest.
lack of super junior.
lack of money!
and lack of life~
agree wif me peeps???
ciaoz~

2009-08-18T19:08:00.017+08:00

Stupid prank!!
Some stupid person put stupid stuff into my letter box...
its this freaking amended 4d ticket...
See pic below:
(p.s: i did not make this myself...!)

The number 9453 is being amended wif paper n glue;
though its not that clear here coz i took e pic wif my hp..
Anw, that's not the point..
the point is, who would do smth so dumb?!
want amend ur result and collect the prize, then go do it urself la..
So lame, stuff it into my house letter box...
Anw anw forget about this...........................................................................................

Went bowling last week...or is it 2 wks ago...?
My lil cousin bowled as well!!!
Here's how he played... (:p)

he sat down on the lane and roll roll roll...
the bowling ball moved so slow~~~~~~ly..
haha.. so cute..
and i thought my ball move slow alrdy.
After like 2 games, he claimed he is tired!
haha.......
the thing is he only sat down and roll, and tt's tired also?
so cute~
He complained his hands are tired, from all the rolling~
LMAO~ wad a cute lil cousin i have..
and so he started playing around while we continued bowling..

And don't play play, in the 1st game, he won his elder siblings!
he went around showing off~
haha, but hes feeling all so proud and happy...
Alex: "Charlene jie jie, u noe why i can better than my jie jie and kor kor?"
Me: "dunno, y?"
Alex: "Becoz i wear my lucky sneakers today~"
hahahahahaha....
cute rite?
he was wearing his own shoes so my aunt can save $ to rent another pair..
i was down on the floor when i heard him say tt!!!
and wow~
after the 1st game, my other cousins n 4th aunt came to join us...
then my parents came as well.
a total of 14-15 ppl playing...
have to wait very long for a turn.
And as usual, such family outings always have my grand~ma to grace the event...

Ain't she cute? (my grandma wif the hoodie on~)

OT assignment down... LM, here i come~~~~~

ciaoz~

2009-08-15T03:39:00.002+08:00

BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!!
OT= Overly torturing!
Hahaha...
but i really deserve a whack on my butt..
individual assignments due real soon..
yet im so obsessed wif a taiwanese drama recently!!!!
EVERYBODY must watch 光阴的故事！
超好看的啦！！！！
I LIKE 一元 and 一美！！！！！
一元 sooo cool in the drama...
酷壁了!
What happens when eveyone around u noes the guy like u but u don't noe?
haha, 笨笨的一美 really is so dumb and innocent and cute!!!
and with all the hints tt 一元 give, 一美 still don't get it!
一元really is 拿一美没办法。。。
soooo nice to her so obvious!!! yet she took sooooooo long to realise...
drag till more than 12 eps then finally she noes tt he likes her!!!
LOL~
but its wad keep viewers like me so interested in the next upcoming ep!!!
And ive got a feeling my ot assignment will not do very well..
Coz im so addicted to the drama tt i cant stop watching it...
and while i forced myself to do my report, i cant stop thinking abt the drama...
真的是完蛋了啦。。。
ciaoz~

2009-08-08T19:40:00.004+08:00

My lappy is in deep shit rite now...
there are alot of pop up ads recently..
and whenever i log into internet (my guess)
my lappy will play music on itself!!!!!
yes tts right!
theres MUSIC being played and i dunno where its being played from..
not in any of my music players..
it juz literally came on... and i really dunno where it comes from at all!
and tt unables me to listen to my my own music files.
and when i tried to up the volume of my song, the music sound became louder as well.
and its even louder than my song being played!!!
and i can concentrate on doing my work!!!!!
and the interent is killing me!
everything is changed to chinese and i have a lot of alien wordings in some files..
whats wrong wif it???
virus?
the ting is i have my anti-virus on and it showed tt my com is protected.
since my com is protected and the scanning didnt really show anything..
but why izzit my lappy showing such syntoms?
pls help me if anyone knows what;s wrong.
need advice!
OTOKE????
そしたらどうしますか?
ciaoz~

2009-08-01T19:27:00.003+08:00

tell me what makes a good idol's fan?
going to their concerts whenever they have one?
not missing every of their fan meeting sessions?
know their family background details?
spending money on their items to show them support?
learning their country of origin's language?
if you ask me...
Everything involves money except the 3rd one...
I'd say its people who doesnt criticise them and every now and then introducing them to ppl...
a successful fan is not one that posses many of the idol's items or signatures... or been to their concerts... or knowing how to speak their language...
a successful fan is one that can successfully influence a new fan..
i dunno why im talking about this..
maybe is coz im pissed..
really pissed and always pissed!
haha, sometimes seeing ppl's comments on video sites really make me feel so mad.
mad at why only when u got money u can get to be labeled as an 'ultimate' fan...
and why are ppl trying to prove to the others that they noe all about them?
dont agree wif me?
Nevermind...
im a person who contradicts myself alot alot..
but im always very determined and energetic about what i like...
However, its true that i myself dunno many things about my idol..
things i noe about my idol is also thru many others...
Sometimes i dun even noe their latest song or singles.
it takes another more-ultimate-fan than me to tell me about it...
this sometimes bothers me the most...
haiz...
funny thing is, i can never get rid of the crazy fan girl ting..
haha... i tink... it runs only in my blood..
otherwise how u explain my family members being so.. fan-proof?
like my sister n my brother...
how ironic...

2009-07-29T20:09:00.006+08:00

Went to town after lectures today to celebrate Nic's b'day in advance...
ate at Suki sushi at cineleisure.
But due to some of us who cant eat much, we split into 2 tables...
one is the ala carte table while the others had the buffet lunch..
cant believe how big the buffet table peeps' appetite are...
i can barely finish up the 6th plate of sushi...
played 终极密码 and the loser will have 2 eat the wasabi mixed seaweed n soysauce ebi sushi...
yuck~
was quite unlucky but who are u kidding???
of coz i didnt eat it... had my own ways of avoiding it.
So, aftr tt we went walking around Orchard ION.
seriously; i felt intimidated..
really! no joke.
LV, Burberry, Georgio Armani, Armani Xchange, Tag Heuer, Ferragamo, Prada...
u want it, u name it...
its like wadever branded brand tt comes into ur mind is all in there!
and we are only a bunch of poor students still schooling and already trying very hard to pay off the school fees.
whew~
but the entire shopping experience is very different.
cleanliness is freaking 100%
and almost every lvl smelled nice wif fragrance..
toilet is freaking lavish...
we were all joking around saying we shud be able to afford an item if all of us pulled our money 2gthr...
haha.
And i swear i will shop in there one day!!!
as in literally buy at least an item frm any one of the brands!!!!
After that...
our food start to kick in n we were all feeling very lerthargic.
So.... ultimately, we went 2 catch a super super horrible movie!!
its some gangster movie wif very very messy storyline.
its called 'plastic city'.
and its not an english film...
HK star Antony wong, 黄秋生starred in it...
BUT!!!! HERE WIF A WARNING!
even if i have to beg... PLS ppl... dun watch it!!!
(even if ure his fan... but unless ure an ultimate crazy fan who loved him so much; then ive got nth to say..)
(p.s nothing wrong wif him, im referring more to the movie.)
7 bucks sooooo awfully wasted...
everyone of us was shocked thruout n it was so boring subsequently...
two of them- Vincent n vic even slept!!!!
there are even RA scenes in it... its sooooo embarrassing.
not coz its RA.. but coz if u see those ppl tt went 4 this movie..
those ppl inside the theatre are in their midde ages...
and we are like a bunch of 'young' kids in a total adult's world..
lyk some cheapo movie for those ah peks to kill their time.
-.-''
yew~
freezing cold inside the theatre n stupid storyline.
no starting, no ending.
really is 没头，没尾，没重点！
well, i didnt noe will kena 'scam' in Spore as well, tot will only experience tt in overseas.
But it was fun today though...
experiences i never had wif e sim peeps...
all of us crapping on e way...
all the bitching n funny comments and our conversationa are always weird...
haha...
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2ml no school!!!
Mummy's off day too!
soooooooooooooooooo happy!
am so looking forward to it.....
well well... that's all folks!

2009-07-23T14:23:00.009+08:00

No school 2day but my cousin, Angel, is celebrating her bday...

there wil a mini bday celebration at my grandma hous... haha..

yup....... (yet another bday celebration of my cousin's...)

haha, tts coz ive got lots of lil cousins mah..

ok ok..

anw anw, abt 2 wks ago i had some experience in the studios...

juz some 'shooting' experiences and we get to see the camera crew on action...

i bet not many ppl had the chance to go into a real studio bah?!

aye?!

u noe where all tv ads or scenes are shot wif green background de?

yeap yeap, we went in there!

My brother n my cousin Michelle went as well..

fortunately wif her frens joined in as well,

we are able to get 'high'!

and so we took some grp pictures...

This is the 1st pic wif flash de...

The one wearing scarf in front- my cousin Michelle.

The one in red- my brother..

The rest behind- my cousin's frens...

And then subsequently are pictues w/o flash...

had some fun then but was late on tt day..

almost kena scolding frm my uncle.

Coz he was the one in-charge of finding ppl for the shoot.

and yet we were late on tt day..

luckily, the camera crew are quite nice ppl,

they didnt really reprimand us for late-coming.

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Meeting Melody nxt week!!!!!

Shes back in Singapore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hope she didnt forget my paris tower key-chain...

cant wait to see her again!!!

ciaoz~

2009-07-14T21:05:00.002+08:00

i noe im slow..
but i freaking fell in love with the Aladdin theme song-
'A whole new world'...
Am now madly in love with this song!
Music is one thing that never has its expiry date..
no matter how old school a song is,
never will it be out dated..
an old song is juz simply an old song..
or a song that debuts very long ago..
Heard the song 'A whole new world' on Tv...
frm the very famous singing competition variety program-
超级星光大道5
my fave contestant, 杨骏文 duet this song wif another fave female contestant of mine...
they sang so nice~
hooked me onto the song a whole new time again!!!
also also...
i wanna be a pro singer as well!!!!!
juz too bad i dunno how to sing professionally =(
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today's lecture is a killer..
only the 1st lect but why does it seem lyk there's MORE to come?
gosh~
another theoritical based module =(
hopefully i can pull through!
oh well,
gg watch my yotube le...
gtg~

2009-07-09T21:10:00.006+08:00

Went to Central wif 'et' (Ms mok) juz now...
haha..
we were playing around wif nicknames n tot of this nickname tt matched her idol's.
so lame.....
(p.s... im not saying hu her idol is, lalala~)
Anw, for some odd reason, i ended up being called 'kimmie'...
ya i noe, lame nick names..
but its juz some lil entertainment in our lives...
And we both coincedentally wore yellow 2day!
funny thing is, we had alot of 'chemistry' only for 2day,
after how long i have known her....
bought her pancake and she actually had pancake in d morning too!
So, there's always a once in a blue moon...
(haha, wad am i talking about?)
Anw, went to walk around at Liang court,
then made way to Central to shop.
'et' and her several cam-whoring...
pics shud be up at her blog sometime soon.
its in her hp afterall...
Got my pay!!
Mum's day off 2day and she went to have fun wif my aunties...
so hip rite~
lol, but im not gonna lose to her as well.
shopped and bought 2 pairs of slip-ons...
so nice n comfy~
also bought some very nice n expensive glass candy too...
(Melon flavor and mango flavor!)
OKay, so tts all for our shopping spree 2day..

OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And my Super Junior craze has won yet another fan!!!
and its so unexpected!!!!
he is ALEX TAM...
haha... my lil cousin!
he told me he likes Eunhyuk and donghae too!
so cute~
and he also like my once fave member frm DBSK-Hero...
haha, his bro, Amos told me tt,
Alex set his com password to 'hero'..
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA~
so cute rite?
Alex is only in pri 2 leh!
and he's alrdy into K-pop craze...
and his fave song is 'sorry sorry~' by super junior.
tink hes the youngest fan of Suju le...
so kawaii~
haha, see??!!
im such a huge influence to ppl~
*proud*
So...
my achievements...
Angela- suju fan
Alex- suju fan
Ms mok- suju fan
Xiao cai- into suju??? soon?
haha...............
wads more there are so many members in Suju to share...
confirm will have the type of member as ur fave de!
dun worry, satisfaction guaranteed~
LOL~

Me- Ryeowook/Siwon fan
Angela- Sungmin fan
Alex-Eunhyuk fan
Ms mok- Leeteuk/Kang In fan
Plus my blur cousin, Michelle, is also a huge fan of Sungmin...
SUPER JUNIOR MADNESS in my entire family n frens...
(p.s... except my own sis, shes so hard to convince..... bwg~)
Alrite alrite~ shall go watch my suju le...
tata~
(p.p.s... if interested in super junior le, can join in our talk too yeah~)
do tag...
ciaoz~

2009-07-07T20:03:00.009+08:00

late update..
school's started last wk..
and work's ended along wif it...
a week break now due to the h1n1 virus...
for some reason i feel abit chilly over the pandemic...
feels like this epidemic of infectious disease is gonna wipe out the human race.
plus the many predictions of the worse is gonna happen in 2012...
(or is it 2010? im not too sure alrdy)..
Anway, my point is...
the dramatic change in weather...
the highly infectious h1n1 virus...
the several negative predictions of the future...
i feel like i stil have so many things to do..
and i haven been able to do it yet.
things on my list that im so afraid i wont be able to fulfil at all.
haiz..realli,
i cant help but to think.. for the worse of what will happen.
and what is yet to come.
My mum keep asking me not to take things so seriously.
shud juz enjoy n relax n take a step at one tym...
i guess im young but old at heart.
i seriously tink that in my heart lives an old woman.
Haha, not trying to be funny but...
i tend to think so so far ahead always.
well,
i guess im really growing~
afterall im no longer a child awaiting my mum to bring n pick me home after school.
for now,
i shall spend the wk's break on hardcore Suju-ing!!!

(P.s i tink i like Donghae n Leeteuk in Suju too!!!! haha~)
Leeteuk--> Leader sshi...
Donghae--> used to be my fave member b4 Ryeowook... then comes Siwon now.

AND AND... im now freaking in love with 'Gee'- Super junior version!!!
fyi, 'Gee' is a fast paced song sang by Girls Generation/ SNSD... it has really catchy beats.
but 7 members of Suju re-make the song in acousic ballad version... so nice~
Super cool~ Super madness~ Super talented~ Super shuai~
Super addictive...SUPER JUNIOR!!!!!
hehe~ ciaoz~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Leeteuk~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Lee Donghae~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

This is a video on 'Gee'- Suju version... (enjoy~)

2009-06-22T21:26:00.004+08:00

Been staring at the white blank box for so long..
wondering wad to write for this entry.
but after staring at the screen for almost 10 minutes,
i stil cant find something to blog about.
Not that there's nothing to update about,
but i juz cant think of where to start.
Something unpleasant happened ytd..
i was in a pissed off state... but then it became guilt-striken after tt...
haiz.
I tink im hard to comprehend.
if only i can judge myself,
and see what really lies deep inside me..
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Life has its unpredictable twists and turns.
We have many choices in life...
The choices you make today will affect the life of tomorrow....
ciaoz~

2009-06-16T23:52:00.006+08:00

well...
i had a couple of set backs recently...
sometimes i wish there are pills for 'erasing' bad memories..
and how i wish there are pills for 'sweet dreams'.
So that everything good is kept in my brain and anything bad is not in there...
then i will only be left wif good memories and positive thoughts.
but sometimes...
what i really need is a good program to watch perhaps?
a comedy?
a pat on my shoulder?
a hug frm my mum?
a nice piece of music?
or....
an entire day spent suju-ing???
haha...
actually, i wanna make my confession here.....
i was so into super junior that... that....
i was stuck on my lappy frm about 9 plus pm to 5am ytd!
and i feel so sorry for the electricity bills that my mum is gonna pay...
i feel so so guilt stricken that she has to pay for my leisure n entertainment.
haiz.
but, youtube is lyk a drug to me.
Once i start, its hard to stop.
so so, ive been on my lappy for nearing 5 hours now and i tink i shall stop.
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ive juz discovered something~
the word 'H.A.T.E' is really too big a word to use.
when someone uses that word onto me..
it made me felt real uneasy..
so unless you really loved something b4 or someone,
and really got hurt frm it, 'hate' doesnt come that easily.
Coz if you really hate someone or smth, u wont easily forgive n forget.
And if after some time, you realised that you have no feelings for 'it' anymore,
that, my friend... is not hate... juz purely forgotten...
im not sure if u understand my meaning.
but im saying rite in this entry is coz, i cant stand that word "hate".
And im feeling a bit remorseful rite now for ever using that word.
haiz...
gtg now~
that's all folks~
(P.s ive found my 2nd fave member in super junior!!!! He is also known as Mr charming in the group=p)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Choi Siwon~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2009-06-10T00:34:00.002+08:00

i tink i am always being complacent when im good at something...
haiz....
that's me...
that's who i am..
that's what i am...
that's how i behave...
which is why at times i juz cant even stand myself...
which is why at times i really dislike myself..
for not putting myself in others shoes often..
too complacent???
which is why...
i did so freaking badly for my ER paper...
im feeling shitty rite now..
real shitty...
feel lyk crying..
but my tear duct juz wouldnt let any tear fall...
too shocked?
most probably...
haiz..
must go n reflect myself....
see how horrible a person i am... and always is...
Sadded...
dun feel lyk talking...
=(

2009-06-05T22:16:00.004+08:00

Do you want love?
And i want love...
Memories are beautiful,
i'll never let you go.
One love...one love...
though memories are beautiful,
i don't ever wanna say goodbye....

KYA............................
been hardcore suju-ing non-stop for several hours le..
feel so guilty for using the com for so long.
waste electricity....
and i can go w/o food juz plain suju-ing...
fyi, suju is 'super junior' in short.
and that means ive been you-tubing their music videos simultaneously...
and now tt i started blogging,
a moment's pause frm suju-ing,
I realised im feeling hungry le...
haha...................................................................
oh my gosh,
super junior is literally the biggest n largest boy band in the world.
13 members in whole,
wif 4 mini sub-grps w/in the band.
and being the largest group ever,
can you imagine how large their influence are to me??
haha...
i totally forgo my DBSK..
and i stil feel so guilty about it!
but then, i juz cant get enough of super junior now!
LOL~
i know i know,
i change hearts real fast.
so maybe tts why im stil unattached now.
(hard facts... i do have a change of heart easily..)
but ive managed to get miss Mok Jessie to fell in love wif their variety program..
and then start getting to know the group..
*proud*
cant believe they have really very nice songs...
all along i thought only DBSK's songs the best..
but i was so very wrong.
suju's songs are a killer, and its killing me....
so hooked onto them rite now tt im listening to my music player continuously.
any vehicle on the road, i might juz jolly well missed hearing it coming n then..
BOOM........... Crash............*#*&%$%!@#*$@#!
choy~ touch wood...
haiz, well well, i cant tahan any minute w/o suju le..
my vid should load finish by now.
ciaoz~
SPREAD THE LOVE ppl...
saranghaeyo....

2009-06-05T00:04:00.004+08:00

new blogskin!!!!!!!!!
as usual, my sis helped me change de.
all i had to do is juz choose the skin i like n the icons i wan.
then the rest is up to my sis to 自由发挥了...
haha~
such girly blogskin, not too bad afterall...
i juz need a breather from the past..
this juz helps me to move onto the nxt phase.
exam results out...
but only 2 of the modules are known.
the other 2 is withheld, coz god noes why the Australian side had a strike going on.
what an unfortunate timing...
hope the other 2 results will be as pleasant as the 2 at current also~
woohoo~
ciaoz!
p.s tags are welcome=p

2009-06-03T20:52:00.008+08:00

The fireworks at HK disneyland!!!!

i was seriously touched when watching the fireworks blooming in the sky....

thx to hwee ting for this video!!!!

haha... dun always say ur camera LQ la... its still very useful in capturing tings mah..

at least it came in pretty useful while my camera batt died on me... tsk~

haha...

i tink its the disnelyand that made my trip worthwhile.... lol~

ciaoz~

2009-06-02T18:42:00.002+08:00

i was excluded from their lives before...

so, i guess i dun have to feel regretful in excluding them frm mine as well...

an awful thing to say,

but i learnt the lesson a really hard way.

i am a little bit caught in the middle..

in the middle of their lives and mine....

i have to face it myself,

but im not gonna back down...

I still have people to back me up,

and i believe i can be there for them as well...

This...... is life...

be truthful to your life....

2009-05-28T01:17:00.023+08:00

Alrite... i spent loads n loads of time juz to get this entry done..
And i even took longer than the previous entry sia...
Also, i didnt noe i took so many photos than expected!
Photos uploaded are onli frm my camera, coz i failed in downloading those tt they tried to send me.. and and there are really lots and lots of pics, so im really lazy to download them all...
Haha.. sry peeps...
So, continuation frm the previous entry, heres everything on Disneyland..=P

the very 1st ting we did is to buy umbrellas even b4 we step into Disneyland!
Tell you, its really freaking hot... Disneyland HK has 3 different lands..
The 1st stop we went to is the Tomorowland...

I was really really excited to meet Mickey (even if its juz the cosplay)
But considering my passionate love for Mickey!!! haha~

Below are all the Grp photos... (I feel the ppl in the Mickey house lyk a bit reluctant to help us sia...)

When we walk out of the Mickey house, they really do hard-selling like mad sia!
our pictures taken frm their camera are alrdy printed out and we see alot of hands, pushing us to buy frm them...
Scary~

See the tree house behinnd us??? its the house frm Tarzan!!!
We are now at the 2nd land, Adventure land...

We went to watch the Musical- 'festival of the lion king'
It was really nice i feel..... i was almost moved to tears coz im reminded of this fave story of mine when i was young... so regret i gave the storybook away le...
ANW, the musical is live!!! so i wonder how many times do those actors n actress sing per day sia...
Hmmm............................

The grand finale~ nice~

We went to take this boat ride after the lion king musical... Some adventures we had while in the boat ride... And abt the fire on water tingy, seriously, me n Ting were really amazed...
though others tink its not a big deal~
nah~............................... dun care them, we amazed can liao....

Ooh~ my camera on my hand is on standby mode facing the water...
coz i saw smth brown n black in e water... and then when i came up, immediately snap!
and it looked so real rite????? ahaha... i was amazed once more...

Below are some of the pictres we taken wif those Disney characters!!!
and Oh my~ the ultimate 'goofy' is not Goofy himself but is Pluto!!!!
Pluto is so much fun.. and such a hyper person....
the others juz mainly posed for us 2 take photo with... lor....

Cinderalla's really graceful though~ waa... the way she talks to us, like...

'fairytale came to live...' (try to imagine... haha)

Goofy is reallllllliiiiii tall... i guess its juz the costume tts tall...

And we are on the way to the Fantasyland~

Did you noe that the classic castle in Disney is called the 'Sleeping beauty castle'?

well, now you noe...

The surrounding area is so fantasy like... it looks as if fairytale land really do exist....
so beautiful~

We took the 'Alice in Wonderland' tea-cup ride...
as well as the 'Cinderella' carousal....

and then we took this 'Its a small world afterall' indoor boat ride...
Below are some of the pictures I took while in this 'Its a small world afterall' boat ride..

haha, i dun exactly noe the name of the ride... but thruout the entire tym, the song keep repeating n humming....

Overall, its nice afterall...

Then there's cinderalla in a cute version... (below)

oh yah, i tink i 4got to mention tt in this boat ride, we enter into a 'children's' world...

Lilo n stitch~

Aladin~ "a whole new world~"

Toy story~

Little mermaid....

And then... we went for this winnie the pooh ride as well...
pls do not comment on my drawing... its juz for illustration purpose only.

As we were walking n walking around, we walked back to the central area where there is a parade going on... Some of the 'cars'.. we saw (erm... i dunno wad they are called... flower cars??)

Lalala~ adventure going on..... and we finally managed to take pic wif mickey n minnie!
they always having such long queue.....

Nice and pleasant day view and adventure shown...
How about the night view?????
Ans: Breath-taking....

Remember this in the day??? it literally came to live at nite sia!!!!

Its sooooooooooooo beautiful at nite... but smth happened tt ruined my entire mood~

MY CAMERA'S BATTERY DIED ON ME!!!!!!! haiz~

After managed to only take this 2 pics and juz b4 the fireworks!!!! my camera went poof!

blank~ out of batt!! out of mood!!!
Regarding the fireworks, its all inside Ting's camera... haha, i tink she sent me..

but i haven download... will try to do it nxt tym....

.................end of adventure in Disneyland park...............

yes! you are not seeing things... its really....

Goofy in the water! haha.. hes either coaching the lil kids swimming or juz playing wif them...

we saw this when on our way back to our hotel to pack our staff....

Below are some final photos we took at the garden behind our hotel...

The back view of our hotel.....

and and.... tada~ we are on our way back home to SINGAPORE!!!!

while waiting for it 2 fly off, me n Ting took this photo on e plane itself....

and OH MY GOD!!!!!! its freaking 'early' rite now...

ive spent lyk frm arnd 11 pm plus till now!!!!! nearing 5am le....

im dead beat!!!!

That's all folks~

thanks for reading~
Im lazy to align the space n stuff le..

so its quite a messy entry... sry folks...

ciaoz~

2009-05-26T23:25:00.032+08:00

hey hey hey...
Im back...
and yeap, i always take so long to update on events..
especially on photos~
and oh boy..
trust me, i spent loads of time trying to get this entry done..
but i decided to split into 2 different parts.
For now i shall onli upload pics for the 1st part..
The 2nd part will be photos frm Disneyland Hong Kong itself..
Overall, the experience is okay..
and realli, i will take really deep thoughts to consider whether 2 go again..
(i mean it in a negative way~)
had a lil unpleasant experience at the HK airport on the flight back to S'pore.
shant go into details though~
juz hope it will NEVER happen again...
AND IM JUZ SO GLAD to be back in SINGAPORE!!!
as the pictures shows, we had lyk lots of sight-seeing and adverntures,
so tt explains why we didnt shop much, and i didnt buy much stuff either.
so yeap, shant waste anymore time;
Here goes..
(P.S it will be a long entry.... =p)
(P.p.s photos taken from my ultra possesion- MY CAMERA...)
(P.p.ps my camera rockz big time!!!!!)

Oh ya... MISSION- see if u can count the no of times i did the *twist* handsign..
someone juz told me tts my signature post everytime i take pic...
haha... i didnt realise until now.. AND YAH, I did LOTS... haha

we took the 'crystal' cable car... which basicall means the bottom is transparent.
But dumb me, i didnt take e photo out frm my SD card, somehow my com cock up,
so end up losing some pics...

Hk is so sorrounded by mountains...

i took this ultra mega giant gigantic buddha statue wif my camera frm a far distance away...

the zoom is good! wahaha~

Me n Ting wanted to hang the lucky papers oso,

but need to buy things frm there then can get it..

so dumb~ might as well bring our own paper~

i feel its a trick to dig out frm tourists onli...

On the 2nd day.....

we meet up wif Sandra's fren frm Hk.

erm, Sandra is Shan's fren...

Shan, is my fren...

haha... complicated.

Anw, she brought us to take this tram up the Victoria peak tingy,

and she treated us to DIM SUM!!! yum~

photos taken while in the tram...

I tink the tram is very English...

as in, similar to those classy trams that you will see in Europe...

Once reached the peak, we went in to the Wax museum...

Brad and Jolie... Actually i have a pic wif onli Brad, but if i have 2 upload all these photos,

10 entries is not enuff for me.. and 5 days is not even enuff as well..

So, i only upload those tt include us in the photo... =)

This pose is requested by Ting herself... LOL~

Doesnt Kellie Chen look so scarily real?

Ting's a fan of golf.. Unfortunately, i dont do golf...

but anw, fyi, he is Tiger woods...

wahahaha~ we were amazed to find Mr Lee Kuan Yew wax figurine in HK...

cant meet the real, shall make do with the fake..

Bt seriously, put his figurine there, will those HK citizens even noe hu is he???

i bet tt day, only the 4 of us took picture wif him... lmao~

haha... phatom pic??? woo~ scary~

3rd day...

we went 2 Ocean Park....! the reknowned ocean park of HK.

i only managed to took photos of the dolphins show and not during the rides..

and trust me, it is this day tt all of us had major suntan n some even sunburnt!

the theme park is so huge, we had 2 tire our feets out juz plainly walking around...

"Onli a HD quality camera does the trick..."

and we were sitting real far up....

haha... *proud* *proud*

my best masterpiece in capturing the dolphins leaping...

Next day...

While waiting for our bus to Disneyland hotel!!!!

See the contrast??? aha~ im always energetic...

"GENKI NA~"

Arrived destination-
hOLLYWOOD HOTEL~ whee hee~ lala~

The extravaganza lobby (below...)

The lavish reception area!!! (below...)

Our luxurious suites~ (below...)
we had some time to rest n settle b4 we make way to Disneyland park...
So in the meantime, me n Ting had our own simple pleasure...

PHOTOTAKING~ =p

uh huh~ i drew the black mickey myself ~.~

I cant remember this all-so-famous whale alrdy..

i used to see it often when i was a kid...

Hello~ i was a really disney kid when i was young~

the whale in pinnochio(i admit i dunno how 2 spell) perhaps? tt swallowed his father n spit him out again???

Okie okie... this is end of 1st part...

Wait up for photos on DISNEYLAND itself alrite????

its freaking late rite now...

i go Zzzz liao...

2009-05-06T20:59:00.002+08:00

whew~

its been so long since i last update..

been real busy..

nonetheless,

though abit late to announce now,

MY EXAMS ARE OVER!!!

lol~

hmm..

i tink ive realli under-estimated uni standard..

its realy not the same as poly, where qns asked in exams are direct.

the exam papers i took so far really require critical tinking to answer the qns..

real tough~

but ive managed to pull through somehow..

now awaiting for the 'judgement' day on June 4th- results release day!

hopefully, i will pass wif flying colors...

oh well,

my entire tym now is dedicated to youtube...

but soon will start work during weekends...

and to tink my hk trip is nearing,

obstacles are coming my way one by one..

haiz...

first my fren down wif chicken pox during exam period..

tt she had 2 pospone the exam dates which we scared might clash...

then the prob is solved knowing tt she will only take her exams at last wk of may,

which is aftr our hk trip..

Then i grew wisom tooth, which hurts initially..

but lucky it doesnt hurt now le...

then the SWINE flu hit the globe...

haiz..

and to tink we r gg overseas at tis period of tym...

dunno wad will happen aftr tt..

hopefully everything will be fine~

pray hard 4 me ppl!!!

well then,

im still being hopeful,

hope everything works out smoothly...

till then, ciaoz~

2009-04-12T19:09:00.004+08:00

its been so so long since the last time i blogged an entry...
haiz...
caught in a dire situation right now..
problems at home can never be resolved..
and it will never cease becoming increasingly serious..
what to do???
am EXAMS in 2 weeks time from now...
considering i have no motivation to start revising anything at all...
really makes me such a huge slacker..
烦阿!!!!!
Wanted to upload the tons of pictures during my bday celebration de..
but i dun have the cable 2 transfer e pics into e com..
and i dun have a card reader.. (too lazy to get one or borrow...)
the ultmate reason is that im so lazy doing it..
and now my only entertainment is at risk of being cut off...
my internet~
my scv~
ive already lost count how many times our hps, scv n internet is being cut off le..
coz its really a hug burden for my mum..
the only bread-winner at home..
and it only made me feel so useless..
to not be able to help at all..
assignment results not appealing..
haiz..
problems at home and in school...
Financial problems are especially the ultimate source of problem...
GOD~
WHY CANT HEAVEN just let my mum strike a huge 4D for once???
crap~
not surprised if my savings dries up..
coz im now financing myself independently..
tough life?? indeed..........

but well..
there's still a lil pleasure in my life...
MUSIC!!!!
is everything to me!!!!!!
am falling in love with SUPER JUNIOR!!!
KIM RYEOWOOK ESPECIALLY~

2009-03-19T23:43:00.003+08:00

waiting for my video in youtube to load...
WAHAHAHA...
im happy...
coz some people wanna give me smth...
THX SO MUCH PEEPS...
realli thx so much!!!!!!
its smth i realli reali wanted n loved to have for so long....
hear me say:
"I LOVE U 2!!!!"
lol~
and i went back into my Hero madness again...
can say bye bye to ft island temperorily...
Kim Jaejoong is stil so hot n multi-talented...
realli is near celebration...
2ml will clear the last assignment n then wait for judgement day-exams!!!
counting down now..
stress-free 4 now..
soon.... very soon... will stress over mugging again!!!!!
ciaoz~

2009-03-19T00:42:00.001+08:00

have never ben this tired before...
juz wanna rant~
i like to sleep happily...
i like to eat happily...
i like to go sch happily...
i ike to blog happily...
i like to have nth to do happily...
but..
im tired....
real tired~
college life???
plain shagged...
ciaoz~

2009-03-10T01:40:00.002+08:00

As the saying goes...
"One down, many to go..."
referring to projects, of coz!
i need all the energy i can get to finish wadever tt comes up...
its all or nothing!
hopefully my ah gong, lau tian ye, guan yin niang niang...
tua peh gong, ru lai fo, etc....
all help me ar!!!
bo pi bo pi ar!!!!!
ciaoz~

2009-03-06T16:32:00.002+08:00

Times are hard now...
so many assignments due nxt 2 wks...
within such a short period of time, can i pull through?
As someone said,
when you fall down, you gain something through the pain..
but how long will the pain last?
can i endure?
Im pretty sure everyone is facing the same stress period right now..
which is why i cant behave selfishly childish right now...
I MUST BUCK UP!!!!!
JIA YOU EVERYONE!!!!!
WE CAN MAKE IT THROUGH~
After this strife times, its time to play n relax...
hk~ hk~ hk~ hk~ hk~ hk~...
=)

2009-02-22T23:36:00.008+08:00

21 FEB 2009...
MY UNCLE'S WEDDING DINNER...

Well well..

admist the hard times, sometimes such an even can boost one's mood...

me, my sister n my other gal cousins helped out at the reception desk..

hoistering ppl 2 sign b4 entry...

but i had class in the morning so i didnt went wif them on e photo taking..

but fret not..

ive got pictures on the wedding itself..

introducing a few stars..

Alex(my cute lil cousin...)

Hes so handsomely dressed... in suit!!!

haha

Amos(Alex's bro... a lil older but oso handsomely dressed..)

Angela(顾名思义 both alex n amos elder sister...)

And shes the brightest dressed there(in pink)..

coz apparently all of us dressed in black n white or grey..

look at e pictures later n u'll noe...

DECLAN(MY beloved cute lil nephew..)

he got scared by all the lightings n loud music and cried especially from the loud "YUM....... SENG......"

Then my bro n sis whom is so difficult to get their pictures taken...

i had to "trick" them into taking a grp pic 2 appear on the photo....

so so, here goes...

The Bride...

My sis, Amos, My small aunt, My mum, e bride, my 4th aunt, Angela, Alex

My small aunt n Amos....

My Dad and ALEX!!! cute~

my 'Hip' Grandma

(At my frandma hous b4 e dinner- my bro, me n my dad)
My uncle was saying we looked lyk a vampire family... dressing al dark colors...
LOL~

The 2 shua ges~ Amos n Alex...

More Alex!!! cuteness~

Alex playing on the stage...

My grandma n shuai alex~

My super kawaii nephew.... Declan~ this pic is so sudden coz i wanna take him looking scared de... But turn out e pic oso not too bad~

Grp pics~

(The reception gals~)My sis, My cousin Madeline, Angela, Me, My cousin Michelle...

See what i mean by Angela being the brightest dressed??

And yup, alot ppl say me n my sis dun look alike...

The last person is my bro....

The youngest one is Ryan... hes so totally 'down-dressed'

We were saying tt his mum spent money 2 dress up but not on her son...

Alex is so popular... So many ppl wanna take a pic wif him...
And with Amos in the picture... This is my fave pic of all!!!!

Unfortunately smth unpleasant happened 2 me at e wedding..

Totally crushed my mood while at the reception...

But im not gonna mentioned abt it coz i soon 4get aftr tt...

Had a whole lot of great time still...

Alex is so handsome in his suit n Declan simply steals the limelight!!!

Haha~ so yeap...

tts all for now...

do tag~

ciaoz~

2009-02-16T17:18:00.004+08:00

Every household has their own problems..
Sometimes i feel that im a failure..
as a daughter, and as an elder sister...
knowing that my mum is in a stressful situation..
seeing her needed help n couldnt get to sleep at nite..
though im glad tt my mum lets me know her situation...
but...
i couldnt do anything at all..
stil studying and cant even fend 4 myself..
cant even provide any support..
cant even help...
Sometimes, though God has a way for everything...
the journey tends to be tough... real tough~
21st birthday approaching doesnt mean much...
its only saying im old enough to help my parents... and that i should...
Zzzz.........................................................................
fun times spent is only a temporary leisure..
at the end of the day, i will still be struck with guilt.
Blaming myself for having the ability to have fun and dun have the capacity to provide help to my mum....
how irony~

2009-02-11T23:56:00.003+08:00

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button....

went to catch the movie with e SIM peeps after lect 2day..
before that we had lunch at KAP's Mac..

The movie??
what the guys think: The storyline is good...
what the gals think: Pitt's HOT!!!!!

hahaha...
such an irony...

despite the 3 long and painful hours sitting,
giving me butt and leg cramps,
i would say its still worth the watch!
Seriously, the storyline is incredible...
and with Brad Pitt starring in the movie,
there is nothing much 2 comment on his acting...
The movie moves me... and made me realise Pitt's hotness even more...
and the good ting is?
ANGELINA is not in the show....
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH~
not in the movie, not in the movie, not in the movie!!!

As we are facing a tremendous stress period rite now in sch,
projects dueing and econs test coming..
So, i decided 2 give myself a break for e tym being...
so yeap.. enjoyed myself 2day...
i want more, more, more....
ciaoz~

2009-02-08T01:12:00.004+08:00

tough times in college.....

im realli getting 2 feel a lil piss and stress n unhappy...

haiz...

the unimaginable happened 2day..

that made me feel so sad..

and totally no mood 2 do my work and proj at all..

REALLY... what a bad year this year is...

2009 is my worst year so far...

and its only the beginning....

haiz~

ive no shoulder to lean on when i need one now...

energy lost..

so is my soul...

fatique...tiredness...

tears all dried up, and my spirit lost...

and the worst has yet to come...

どうしょう。。。

つかれたな。。。

i wanna be the happy old me again...=(

2009-01-23T22:06:00.002+08:00

CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING SOON!!!!!
and that means..
im gonna put on extra weight again...
sianz...
went out wif my sim classmates again last wk..
but onli a handful though..
went 2 support my ogl at the cathay coz hes singing in Ben n Jerry's..
after that went shop around..
then 2 of them drove car n we went 2 eat supper at Holland V.
chilled n chit chatted until nearing 3am...
conclusion??
ALL the supper n late nites are making me growing fatter n fatter each day..
SO,
ive started 2 do my sit ups again..
SHAN, TING...
BADMINTON again okay?
i need 2 loose those fats le..
need more exercise..
haha~
....................................................................................
mum juz told me tt 2009 is a super tough year..
not juz the economy, but its not a gd year for those born in the Dragon year..
so i guess,
im gonna have a hard tym in sch..
and dragon babies, try not 2 be so san ba (bitchy/gossipy)
coz u might have a fan xiao guo...(reversed effect)
tts the feng shui n analogy for this year, according 2 my mummy...
aye aye..
im going 2 have a hard tym coz im realli very san ba de..
and i gossip alot..
and those hu noe me,
i cant stop when i start 2 talk..
haha~
will try, will try...
LUNAR NEW YEAR round the corner..
hopefully aftr the new year,
will be better..
For frens hu are depress, cheer up okie??
and dear dear Jessie...
dun so sad...
im not realli actually having a gd tym in SIM...
im onli juz trying 2 mingle wif them onli..
afterall, we're in a biz sch...(networking is essential..)
hehe~
gtg~
ciaoz~

2009-01-16T00:19:00.003+08:00

Woa..

never done vigorous exercise for such a long time..

A few days ago, Shan n Ting came 2 my hous n play badminton wif me again...

and this tym, onli my rite arm hurts..

haha...but thanks to them tt i started 2 do smth sporty again..

Anw..

ytd..

1st tym hang out wif my og peeps frm SIM...

(og means 'orientation grp')

u dun have 2 noe the term la, juz treat its as class peeps..

continue..........................................................................

i tink im so different frm what i used 2 be in sec sch n poly..

i used 2 tink tt i can make frens easily de..

and i am a very approachable person..

but then..

it seems tt my 人缘 not so good in SIM..

haha..

i hang out wif Ting most of the times..

and even in the outing ytd,

we are sticking 2 one another oso..

haiz...

and y izzit tt its so hard 2 start a conver wif them in msn too?

天啊!

but we did alot of tings ytd..

went 2 have lunch at Bugis..

then aftr tt split into 2 grps..

some went shopping, some went play pool..

i went play pool wif Ting oso..

and my skills SUCKS big time..

too long didnt play, totally lost touch le..

then aftr tt went 2 mit e other grp in Bugis Junction..

met our ogls..

walked 2 marina square 2 purchase our movie ticks b4 we chill at starbucks..

chatted awhile at starbucks..

and my ogls kept making fun of me larh..

kept calling me librarian coz i looked lyk one..

keep saying tings lyk "eh, wad tym our library in SIM close ar?"

"how much u charge for overdue bks ar?"

wth~

then was bored so went shopping wif some of e gals n ting n jerome joined as well..

hes such a 'ladie's' kinda person.. -.-''

aftr tt some of us stayed 2 watch Transporter 3..

aftr e movie, we went 2 esplanade 2 eat supper n chit chatted..

the chit chatting session turned out 2 be some kinda "love advice" session frm our ogls..

haha..

but ive got 2 know some of my og peeps even better too..

still,

i hope everything goes well in the entire sch term..

aye aye aye....

AND IM SO IN LOVE WIF FT ISLAND'S SONGS......

ppl,

fyi, FT Island is a korean rock boy band..

onli 1 lead vocalist..

but hes got such a nice n powerful voice...

but my fave is the bassist or so you called..

their songs are super sad n sorrow kind..

more to lyk slow rock..

very melancholic..

nice to listen when u wanna tink abt ur lover..

nice to listen when u wanna tink of where to suiside..

nice to listen when u wanna tink of abt ur sad n pathetic life..

haha..

IM ONLI JOKING... serious..

but if u realli feel sad, listening 2 songs is realli a gd way 2 destress..

u can cry over the song..

but pls...

after tt u gotta look ahead of ur life again..

don't do silly tings..

SO...

depressing ppl, go listen 2 ft island sad songs..

or DBSK'S songs too..

if u wan, can ask frm me...=)

BUT, of coz FT island oso have cute songs too...=p

So yeap...

going 2 listen 2 my songs le...

tata~

2009-01-09T22:15:00.003+08:00

die le la...
Is dying... Is dying...
Is going to die.. Is going to die.. Is going to die..
time 2 change a new one!!!!!

guess correctly???
yeap, its my lappy....
SIANZ...
ITs really showing its sickly 'syndrome'...
better blog faster b4 it hang on me again..

Aftr Mkt lecture 2day,
accompany Shan to retrieve her hp frm repair..
then went for lunch...
bought shi ling crispy chicken, sushi..
then went eat at MOS burger..

and the phenomenen happened...
i started playing sports!!!
went ting hous get changed n played badminton..
but the wind is bent on spoiling our fun..

played basketball..
some lil kids wanted a match wif the three of us..
And so we played..
and we WON!!!

by luck i tink... coz they r onli lil kids..
not the pro basketballers or those frequent player lyk my bro kind..
otherwise sure kena beaten lyk siao...
but damn shagged..
we are old bones le...
wahaha~

reached home n put up some decorations for the new yr wif my parents..
pictures of my decorated house will be shown another tym..
and yeap.. Another boring entry again 2day...
well, gtg~
ciaoz =p

2009-01-08T23:13:00.003+08:00

4th day in school...

Had a taste of the marketing lecture 2day...

gosh, its really chimalogy..

aftr lecture, went for lunch with Ting..

then aftr tt went 2 find my parents at Bugis..

My parents brought me to Fu Lu Shou complex...

(fyi, its the place tt sells lots of buddhist/buddha stuff...)

so yup,

went there 2 pray the 四面佛

hopefully everything goes well for me through the year..

Chinese New Year is round the corner..

Cant wait 2 'squeeze' people in Chinatown this Sun..

go shop for 年货(CNY goodies) wif my parents n Grandma...

till then..

tada~

2009-01-06T22:28:00.003+08:00

Today is my 2nd day of school at SIM..
to tell the truth,
lecture is tiring..

i cant say its boring,
coz the lecturer is somehow entertaining..
though most of the time i dun really understand =p

tiring... is coz ive nvr had a 3 hr lecture straight b4..
the longest lectures i had in NYP is only 2 hours..

Had History of Management Thought for the past 2 days..
2ml will be the last b4 the start if another module..
After hearing the module requirement,
i was in a serious stress mode..

Suddenly,
the thought of grp projects and individual assignments..
is starting 2 freak me out again..

BUT!!!
the thing that made me stress the most..
is not these..

ITS THE FREAKING EXPENSIVE TEXTBOOKS!!!

66 bucks for this HMT module..
can imagine how much will i spend altogether for the nxt few modules..
for this sem onli!!!!
whew~

Fortunately Chinleng n Shiting can lend me..
Though its a different edition, i heard its pretty much the same..
so hope that it is.. so i can save money..

Anw, nothing interesting happened recently,
coz its home -> lecture -> home..
or maybe home -> lecture -> dinner wif ting ->home..
so its kinda routine..
3rd person!!! pls come join us..(if u noe wad i mean..)
hehe..
gtg~

2009-01-01T02:17:00.007+08:00

GOODBYE 2008... HELLO 2009!!!!
its been sometime since i last blogged..
Before i officially embrace the new year,
i shall blog about events that happened on 2008..
a summary of events that i was too lazy 2 blog about..
here goes..

Been through quite a tough time the past few weeks..
and im glad everything is going 2 end soon..
2ml is my official last day of work...
and then i shall rest a few days b4 i start sch on the 5th jan..
SIM... here i come~

looking back..
ive been working non-stop for the past 7mths..
after final year exams at NYP.. I began working at UOB..
and had real fun over there.. here are some of my farewell pics..

They gave me a farewell card and some gifts..

top: yangqian, white: Yana, red: han nee.. green: me!!

for those hu remembered me mentioning some freaky 'stalker' at work..

tts right the onli weird looking one,

is the one that 'pop' out of nowhere at the most corner wif specs, when we r taking a grp photo..

Seriously!!! whats wrong with her..
Im closer 2 the gals.. so they wanted 2 take a group pic..
and then tt gal.. she juz suudenly stood up from her desk n pushed fazlinda beside her n then..
"ZAP.." her face's in the picture..
TSK TSK TSK!!!!!

the most freaky thing is tt my cousin is now working in uob..

He told me tt that gal tried 2 be like me at work..

like wth~

i noe im well likeable..

but still.. TSK!!!

Oh well, its been months ago so i shall let bygones be bygones..

And then i start working at Canon service centre since August til now..

Moving on..

......................................................................................

21st DECEMBER...

Went to Victoria concert hall to watch my cousin's performace..
My cousin is in Sembawang wind ochestra and is the resident conductor..
Hes also the band head and im proud of that..=)

the giant xmas tree at the entrance...

we walked up this flight of stairs to the theatre..
i like the theatre's atmosphere... notice the lightings very romantic..

Me and my cousin..

........................................................................................

CHRISTMAS DAY... (at my aunt's house..)

my cousins, Angela and Alex..
i took this pic of them coz of the wordings on Angela's shirt..Coz they are siblings..

But the star of the night??? No, not Alex...

He is...

My NEPHEW...
DECLAN is his name..
(pronounce: dare-clent)
he looks like this 5 and 1/2 months ago...

and this is him during Christmas now...=)

so cute, hes not afraid of strangers..
and he let me carried him earlier on..
i used a silver ball (decor from the xmas tree) to capture his attention..

and hes actually looking at the ball beside my hp..
and then i got this super cute picture....
THE CUTEST THING IN THE WORLD..
my only nephew... so that explains my 'obsession'..

KAWAII NE?????????

........................................................................................

SIM orientation on the 29th DEC..
not too bad.. at least i had fun wif my ogls..
ive damaged Ting's watch and am so sorry.. it was an accident..
the orientation took the entire day from 8.30am to around 10pm..

Reached home real late and totally shagged coz we played many games...

The orientation theme?

'I survived the SIM-RMIT Gameshow..'

........................................................................................

30th DEC..

went out wif dearie Jess 2 ps..
watched twilight..
not too bad..
but i tink it can be better though..
coz my sis told me the story from the novel itself..
I'd say the movie is 70% romance and 30% action..
unlike the novel, action alot..
so yup..
but like i said, not too bad though..

......................................................................................

Countdown..
supposed 2 mit Jess to countdown..
but when i reached home from work,
mum told me tt 2day is my uncle's registeration of marriage..
so we had a mini ceremony going on n we had 2 be there..
So sorry Jess..
broken my promise..
Shall make it up 2 u nxt tym okie..

Well...
With the "5,4,3,2,1" on tv..
its officially the start of the new year..
HOPE its a good and pleasant year up ahead..

and its so late now, and im tired...

supposed 2 sleep about 2 hours ago.. but then i juz feel i need 2 blog...

Okay...

done with the updates...

thanks for reading and do tag... whoever u are=)

HAVE A GOOD YEAR EVERYONE=)

2008-12-20T17:51:00.006+08:00

离开家出门时，家里没有人。

回到家了，家里还是空无一人。。。

今天是第一次，自己一个人出去走走。

因为和爸妈吵架了。

有时候，我喜欢和自己逛街。哪怕只有自己。

原本想要让自己开心一点，

但是。。。

在回来的路上，有个身上充满香水味的抽烟的人经过我的身边。

让我领悟到，

一个抽烟的人，喷在多香水也掩盖不了身上的烟味。

同样的，一个不开心的人，再怎么装开心也是不开心的。。。

两个不同类的东西，却是有着相同的道理。

已经好久没有和家人倾诉自己的心事了。。。

是我不需要和他们说了？

还是已经麻木了？

我后悔和爸妈吵架了。。。

2008-12-18T00:12:00.002+08:00

yay...
my sis helped me changed a new blog skin..
its Mickey Mouse!!!!
simple yet nice..
and my ulcer just got worse..
shitty..

work is going to end soon...
counting down to the number of days..
8 more days to CHRISTMAS..
"Jingle bells... Jingle bells... Jingle all the way..."
14 more days to end of work!!
19 more days to start of school=)

oh ya... do tag on my pretty tag board...
ciaoz~

2008-12-14T01:17:00.002+08:00

ive got a super big ulcer!!!!

and its really affecting me..

i cant speak properly..

much less eat properly..

and its starting to swell..

i cant laugh coz it will someone 'tear' the wound..

so pain that i wanna cry everytime i drink water..

and the side of my neck hurts big time..

mum says its heaty..

asked me to rub salt on my ulcer..

and i did..

but gosh~

the feeling is freaking terrible..

its like sprinking salt on an open wound..

millions of needles poking on your wound..

my whole mouth feels as if its gonna fell off from my entire face!!!

so PAINFUL!!!!!

sitty state rite now..

ciaoz~

2008-12-12T01:11:00.004+08:00

I think my body condition is not good these days..
i cant digest whatever i eat..
and im always feeling terrible..
Ever happen to you before that..
you keep wanting to feel like burping but you cant..
and then you will try to force yourself to do it?
but no matter how many times you force yourself to burp..
the feeling is still there and never go away..
and will keep making weird noises from your chest to your throat?
THATS THE IRRITATING FEELING I KEEP GETTING THESE DAYS!
like my chest is so bloated...
no amount of burping is going to help at all..
and i just lost the appetite to eat anything at all after that..
anyway,
my main purpose to blog today is not about talking this 'bloated-ness'
Actually, im just finding things to blog about while waiting for my videos to load...
and then after that...
DBSK.... here i come..
again...
But before that,
if you've seen my previous photos i upload..
there's a picture of my cute cousin, Alex and my sis...
Here to talk a lil about Alex's cuteness..
ive mentioned that he asked questions that can stun me..
here's some..
"Charlene jie jie, why...why malaysia the things like so old wan ar?"
and..
(there are alot of mudskippers at the kelong area in Kukup...)
"Charlene jie jie, mudskipper is the only insect in Malaysia izzit?"
haha...
i told him "no! and mudskipper is not an insect..."
i thought he will just "oh..." and keep quiet but then he asked me...
"Then mudskipper is what? fish ar?"
"..."
and then also..
"Charlene jie jie, why mudskippers jump jump? they don't walk wan ar?"
Erm......... how am i supposed to answer his questions?
And so cute,
notice how often he used the word 'Malaysia..'
so funny...
he sees Malaysia from the perspective of kukup..
which is only scoped down to kelong areas..
Haha..
ok ok... I tink my show upload almost complete le..
ciaoz~

2008-12-10T18:30:00.010+08:00

Im back from my trip to Kukup..
People who doesnt know where that place is..
Its in Malaysia..
and its a fishing village with some resorts..
it is also where all the kelongs are..
So, houses are actually built on top of waters..
and i tell u...
its really freaky walking our way 2 our resort!
Coz u see,
the paths are so narrow and its lyk walking on bridges
w/o any handles/ fence at both sides..
its juz concrete path built on top of the water..
if u juz missed a step, u'll fall into the water below...
i dunno if u know what i mean..
as i was in a hurry 2 walk faster so that i can reach our destination faster,
i didnt take any photo of it at all..

so i juz drew a pic to let u have a better understanding..

get what i mean about freaky?
Anw anw, im not very good at taking pictures so...
i only have some very brief pics..

here it goes..

My cousin almost fell when i took a pic of her...

we didnt do much on the coach...

everyone else is occupied wif their mp3...

but i dun have 1 =(...

we arrived at this place and after which are taken to a restaurant to have our lunch..

i was really hungry so i started eating first then realised to take the pictures...

The dishes include chilly crab, clams, tofu, beansprouts with ikan billis, fried fish, wheat prawns..

My aunt super love eating crabs!!! her expression freaking funny..

my fave cute lil cousin... ALEX!!! and my sis...
Alex is so cute throughout the trip..
He's always asking questions non-stop and most of his questions stunned me for a while..

This is how the restaurant looked like from the balcony (i tink it is)...

see all those houses built on top of the water..
Earlier on when i described the narrow pathway that we walked,
they are also built like this so walking on it is really realli scary...

We've arrived at our resort... though its not a big place..
Anw, ive 4got 2 mention that we are actually travelling with nearly a 100 people..
Coz, its this particular company that organizes this trip..
and all the program is packed for us..
So, we played games wif them n stuff..

My cousins in our room slacking...
most traditional travelling experience..
sleeping with 'tilams' on the floor..

And so, after all the games n stuff, its already sunset...
juz too bad i dun have such a high resolution camera to capture its beauty...
After that, dinner is served...
and we had seafood bbq...

my uncle is trying to look for stingray flesh left...
the stingray is my fave of all the seafood..

Haha... My aunt and her funny facial expression again..
everytime i ask her to look at me, she'll dunno how to pose..
So, she'll always come up with hilarious expression!!

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group photos..

very few photos coz i tot we will extend our trip.. but we didnt...

the guys...

they say it looked like a soccer team pic...

haha, quite true sia...

Okay, although it looks like ive had a fun time..

i was sick during the entire time..

ive suffered from indigestion after the first lunch..

and vomited slightly..

and den i came home with a diarrhoea..

but oh well..

its quite a refreshing experience for all of us..

2008-12-05T00:22:00.005+08:00

smoking is bad for health...

smoking is really BAD AND HARMFUL for health..

Aren't this fact clear enough?!

since its so direct, then why do people still smoke?

WHATEVER FOR???

don't smokers ever think how they can actually affect people around them???

these people only care about their own addiction...

They don't even care about the people living and breathing the same air as them..

PLAIN SELFISH...

don't they know that us, passive smokers (non-smoker that breathed the same air...)

die faster then smokers themselves??

im PISSED off right now...

im sorry if ive sound offensive,

but i believe non-smoker like me have their own rights to voice it out!!!!!!!!!

and im going really crazy smelling all that damn harmful 'air' all day..

and i really mean ALL DAY!!!!!

more than just pissed...

ciaoz~

2008-12-03T19:54:00.003+08:00

i tink...

i should learn how 2 talk n care less,

and start minding my own business alrdy...

whew~

coz everytym i started giving comments on smth,

it will turn out as a joke..

and getting myself into a deep embarrassment...

coz, people dun understand wad im trying 2 say,

that made me unable to understand myself either..

to the point tt i will even question myself..

"why do i even say tt?"

"wouldn't it be better if im not such a busy body?"

Coz i juz speak tinking tt i understand..

when actually i don't quite understand at all..

hence, i always end up "throwing face"..

I threw my own face on countless times alrdy...

Oh boy, why am i such an 'embarrasser'...

i always land myself in such dumb n 'embarrased' moments...

and i tink, its my own fault...

coz im playing goofy by myself...

Juz a few days ago, ive drank during my cousin's b'day party..

my whole face was red..

and i kept telling people tt im not drunk..

well, the point is, IM REALLY NOT DRUNK...

and i know what's going on around me..

Bu then, when i started talking, my mouth is stil numbed with the several liquor..

that i was talking unclearly..

and in the lift..

my grandma was talking to my mum n uncle smth abt a golden key 4 my 21st bday..

i wasn't listening 2 their conversion coz i was looking at my reflection inside the lift..

and i heard my name n smth smth 'key'..

and then i was thinking,

juz nice i couldnt find my key the past few days..

maybe i'd left it at my grandma's house..

so i juz suddenly blurted out "Oh, ah ma found my key? tts mine... i lost it a few days ago.."

And then the embarrassment al came in..

the adults were looking at me as if they were looking at a "drunkard"..

That aside..

Recently, i was watching this video wif my bro n sis...

and then it was in Japanese..

i assumed i understand pretty well so i tried 2 tel them what it says..

And they were like "icic.... no wonder this this this..."

BUT then!!!

aftr the show ended, it actually have a chinese subtitle showing what tt episode is abt,

like a recap, b4 showing what to expect in the nxt episode..

usually jap shows are lyk tt..

AND THEN...

Whatever i told them..

was wrong!!

the chinese subtitles show it all...

My bro n sis gave me a -.- face!

as if trying 2 tel me "yeah rite..."

at tt point, i was lyk "Oops.... sorry.."

and then i ran 2 the room...

What am i? an embarraser???

or im juz trying to be a smart alec???

TSK~

Really...

goofy me!!!

2008-12-02T22:49:00.003+08:00

stress at work...

stress at home...

2ml is the day that will decide whether my mum's health is alright..

I hope everything turns out okay..

and hope mummy be in pink of health soon...

im realli scared...

damn scared..

2008-11-30T18:18:00.002+08:00

I just threw my temper at my mum again..

I know i shouldn't have..

Much as i know being nasty to my mum is the last thing i should ever do..

I still did it..

and i really pissed her off..

and now im regretting it big time..

Sometimes i don't know why im so childish.

Even my younger sis n bro scolded me for behaving so childlike..

Had to admit that,

at times, they do behave and think more mature than me..

I just cant control myself..

No matter how hard i tried,

they don't and never see me as a senior..

even my cousins are more adult-like than me..

Kept hearing people say that its good coz i won't look aged..

but im having a hard time that they won't be able to understand..

And now, i don't know how to make up with my mum..

Haiz...

so much for throwing temper at something so small a matter...

freak me~

2008-11-25T19:33:00.002+08:00

Lost any sign of happiness the past few days...
its a tough ride and there are lots of problems coming my way as well as my family's way...
been numbed by the feeling of being ignored...
Friends that stick through thick n thin?
Friends who will always be there when i needed someone?
I guess, not anymore...
and i guess, i never will have any close friends in my entire life...
Im just such a loser...
I have such a failed n misery life...
Nothing is more important than the health of my family right now...
and i wont berate or complain anymore..
I just hope to be able to live through whatever it is right now...
pls... be safe...

2008-11-20T23:43:00.006+08:00

HIDDEN TALENTS...

love watching animes???

especially in Japanese?

then have you ever wonder who are the ones that voices behind those anime characters??

fyi, these voicers are known as "Seiyuu.."

These people took voicing anime characters as their occupation..

and there are several amazing people among them.

HOWEVER,

their looks are most of the time unexpected..

for example, a kawaii voice from a cute anime female can actually be voiced by a 30plus woman..

or, a very low n deep voice from an elder male character is acually the voice of a teenage guy...

that is why it is so full of unexpectedness...

SNEAK PEEK!!!

ive recently fell in love with this particular 'seiyuu'..

hes considered 1 of the top notch seiyuu around, winning a rookie n freshman award juz after his debut...

And his big name is... MIYANO MAMORU...

At times, he has a cool character

Most of the time, he is cute...

Usually i juz watch anime lyk the norm..
whereby ignoring the actual credits behind the scenes..
and then im recently so in love wif the anime "Vampire Knight",
and fell in love with the character that Mamoru voices for...
its uber mesmirising...
And he's super well known too..
For anime watchers, you should be familiarise with him.
He's voiced for numerous anime characters and among which,
being the more popular ones include:

Tamaki(Club's president)- Ouran High School Host club
Light Yagami(Kira)- Deathnote
Death the Kid- Soul Eater
Zero Kiryuu- Vampire Knight
Setsuna f. seisei - Gundam
and soooooooooo many more...

hes got a very attractive voice as well as a pleasant outlook..
An additional pluspoint is that he can sing too!!!!
Recently, he sang the opening song for 1 of the Dynasty Warrior game..
Those that played PS, should be familiarised wif Dynasty warrior.
(Im not going into details about it.)

Mamoru's talent enabled him to be hired by KOEI entertainment as one of their main voicer for their RPG games...
fyi, KOEI entertainment is one of the big players in the gaming industry..
if u played playstation, then you should know...
Miyano's also a very chummy guy, usually the clown in the class during high school time...

So, people...
do look out for him n many more the nxt tym u watch an anime!!!!!
MIYANO MAMORU CHO KAWAII NEH~

2008-11-15T01:57:00.006+08:00

My heart melts for them!!!
Ive finally gotten my Mirotic album some tym ago..
and i juz cant get enuff of them so i shall upload some pics...
and for this particular album,
they've trained hard for their muscles...
making them all so hot~
See proof below..

Xiah, Micky, Jaejoong(drools~), Max, U-know

See his sweet smile??

RED!!!! MY fave color=p

and this is my FAVE pic of all!!!!
Oh Jae Jae!!!!

and and... its being voted tt Jae's got the best bod...
Those biceps n abs arent fake okay...
this really made me wonder...........................
Does such good looking person really exist??

2008-11-14T23:41:00.004+08:00

I think...
im a freaking great liar...
Haha, serious!!
coz whenever i said i wanna do something,
it didnt happen; most of the time.
Funny how many times i wanna do something and told my sis excitedly.
And then, it never did occur afterall..
Until recently, talking to her can really be as sulky as ever,
coz she just gave me the "yea yea whatever..." look..
it made me felt irritated at first..
But come to think of it,
its my own fault..
So much so for the talk.
Nonetheless, nobody can stop me from talking whatever i want.
So, ive made a resolution.
That is, i will try to talk less in the near future.
And i shall only talk it out loud when that certain ting really did occur.
....................................................................
Next up,
I suddenly have this thought in mind.
Whenever i found myself being 'unappreciated' by certain people,
it really demoralize me tons.
Nothing can be as demoralizing as seeing how your old buds seemed to erase you totally from their current life.
But then again,
as i browsed around,
I realised that there are stil people out there,
who kept my name with them silently..
As precious as they are to me,
that made me felt much appreciated afterall.
And come to think of it,
Some of which are the ones that i seldom contact back too..
This made me felt real guilty about it.
I met Julie at Vivo today..
and to tell the truth, I felt really happy..
I was back facing her as she was at the ATM,
Her hand came up and messed my hair..
At that point of time,
i started to miss the times where i had my friends with me in school.
Those familiar faces that are no longer around me..
Julie's gesture made me felt a sense of familiarity..
and it made my throat turned real sour come to think of it..
These friends, not contacted since long,
are there, even though silently..
Even though they did not shout it out loud to me,
that they did not forget me..
they remembered me still, quietly..
It is really heart warming,
to know that when a person drift away from you,
there are still others around..
And im not always alone.
Because, when fate brought you to someone new,
it wont go away to the point of being totally forgotten..
And when i look back the tracks,
there are so many footprints left behind,
not only mine...
These existence are non-erasable..
I hope..
I really do hope to rekindle those feelings..
Just a pity;
we cant turn back time at all...
so long for now~
bye~

2008-11-09T20:45:00.010+08:00

全部がきらい。。。

この感じはぜんぜんきらい。。。

なんとか？

理由は何に？

今も忘れない。。。

あの日から？

自分で自信がないか？

どうして、心ニはいたい？

どうして、この感じ。。。

ほんと、わからない。。。

2008-11-05T17:10:00.003+08:00

so long didnt blog le..

felt lyk ive lost touch wif some of the world,

and some of the people too...

felt tt i cut myself off frm alot of contacts...

and im wondering now wad r my frens doin...

coz none contacted me back..

and my super cheap hp bill is proof 2 tt..

and soon, i oso lost the interest in smsing frens..

part of the reason is coz im bz..

part of the reason is coz they r bz..

and part of the reason is someone lyk Xiaocai,

hu either choose 2 reply real late or totally ignore...

Zzzzzzzzzzz............................

so yup,

kinda lost the feeling 2 do any contact..

den suddenly now got nth 2 do so decided 2 blog aftrall..

juz came back frm work..

happy tt i end work early again 2day...

these past month,

i tink i lead a real peaceful life..

a peaceful, simple n easy job..

wif short working hours..

i wonder, wads gonna happen when i start sch again nxt yr..

are all the stress gg 2 cum my way again?

rite now,

i can sleep real late coz i start work onli in the afternoon..

and i can wake up late oso coz i work in the afternoon..

and den at work,

its easy money i shud say..

even though its not a huge sum of money,

but i can go back home early once ive finished my work,

without the need 2 wait til after office hours...

and ive got ample tym 2 do the tings i wan when i reach home..

but such simple life makes it so 'un-interesting'..

its getting a little boring too..

no drive, no strive 2 do certain tings..

haiz..

quite restless..

juz feel lyk slacking when i reach home..

and den watch tv n stuff..

den slp n wake up 4 work the nxt day..

i juz hope 2 find some motivation in life soon..

Cant wait 4 christmas 2 arrive!!!!

at least its smth i look 4ward 2 now...

well,

boring entry 2day..

but at least its an update...

gtg...

ciaoz~

2008-09-28T04:06:00.003+08:00

The time now is 4am in the wee hours...

and im stil quite awake..

siao liao..

dunno wad tym wil i wake up 2ml...

anw anw..

was watching youtube...

and i found my super new love...

thay are a bunch of cute lil korean boys..

tt each have their own talents..

and the oldest among them is onli 10 yrs old..

the youngest---6 yrs old...

and they are currently known as mini dbsk!!!!!!

SUPER DUPER CUTE...

they are picked out of 300 lil children hu went 4 e audition..

and the final 5 are out..

each represent n look lyk their adult DBSK member..

I super LOVE mini Xiah and mini Jaejoong!!!

they realli resemble their seniors sia..

and they have alrdy gained popularity n have fans too..

they even went 4 fansmeeting..

kaoz~

and mini Jae is sooooooooo good at dancing..

hes got such a charismatic character...

and hes so cool..

wads best is, he even speaks wif an accent juz lyk JAEJOONG!!!

and mini u-know is known as the mini dbsk leader...

hes soooooooooooo brotherly n since the oldest..

he realli took care of his other members so well..

and hes realli got the leader style juz lyk DBSK's Leader- U-know!!!!!

and im amazed they are alrdy participating events in SM entertainment!!!

so cool sia..

juz a pity tt aftr some tym mini Jae left SM entertainment and joined JYP entertainment instead...

but stil..

i hope 2 have such talented kids when i grow up too..

haha..

so much for my new found excitment!!!!

and, i tink i better go get some slp le..

else will have panda eyes 2ml de..

gtg~

tata~

2008-09-25T23:30:00.005+08:00

I cant ask for time 2 revert back...

coz time waits for no man...

the onli possible ting tt us, humans, can do is...

to keep on trying n moving 4ward..

sometimes u have 2 leave certain tings behind..

but those tt are left behind..

tend 2 be the most memorable..

coz... those arent tings tt are juz simply left behind n 4got..

but are the ones tt formed an important part in our lives...

called... memories...

We cant turn time back n go back 2 our elementary sch days..

we cant go back 2 our (mostly memorable) secondary sch days..

we cant go back 2 our poly days n be drowned by projs n exams..

we cant go back 2 a broken relationship/frenship n make tings rite again(even though we wish we could..)

so, we had 2 put all these behind n keep moving 4ward..

and let these tings formed our most important n unforgettable memories..

something, tt we can keep in our hearts n our minds even if we are moving 4ward..

tt will never be left n forgotten...

So, make urself happy by telling urself tt its OKAY, if uve done wrong or could have done better...

(but dun do it often.... coz its not too good 4 u too though..)

got this slight advice frm someone.. and my mum as well..

coz my mum 'provoked' me a few days back by calling me useless..

these words she said made me feel super uber demoralised..

and made me start 2 tink deeply tt im realli useless..

and then the nxt day, she told me shes juz kidding...

and continued sayin: "if u're useless, den how come u can still graduate frm psle-diploma?"

even though this made me feel better, but her words of "ure useless.." is still engraved deep in my mind..

maybe shes juz lyk me..

talks wadever tt comes in our mind..

and is the kind of person who speaks how we feel straightly..

and unknowingly hurt others..

even though we dun mean 2 do so at all..

well,

im not sure if this is considered an enlightening post 2 me..

coz im not sure if this positiveness will last..

hu noes, i'll revert back 2 my emo state again, soon...

for now...

think again, readers...

ciaoz~

b4 i realli go off...

Heres an announcement...

"er hem... DBSK 4TH ALBUM IS OUT!!!!!"

DBSK FANS!!! DO SUPPORT THEM!!!!!

I cant wait 2 lay my hands on on 1....

bye~

2008-09-23T23:57:00.005+08:00

どしたんの？どしたんの？どしたんの?

どしたんの？どしたんの？どしたんの?

どしたんの？どしたんの？どしたんの?

どしたんの？どしたんの？どしたんの?

どしたんの？どしたんの？どしたんの?

my mum has found a new part tym 4 me..
shes asking me 2 take it up aftr my current admin job ends at this mth end...
and 2 think tt ive stated clearly tt i dunwan 2 b forced 2 work jobs tt i dun lyk..
but den...
the pay wise..
is super attractive larh...
9 bucks per hour leh...
u tel me!!!
haiz...
and working hours is frm 6pm-11pm..
which i dunhav 2 wake up so early the nxt day..
hmm....hmm....hmm.....
how how how????
must make up my mind fast...
putting this aside...
im stil waiting 4 the letter 2 arrive...
the letter of confirmation...
am anticipating it so much...

oh well..
till then, i juz have 2 slog real hard at work for now...
nid money!!!!!!
gotta save hard!!!
till then, chaoz~

2008-09-19T01:07:00.002+08:00

juz let me vent my frustrations for a while...

here goes...

i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this

i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this...

whew~

for the benefit of letting off much steam, dun copy n paste...

try typing it out word by word...

i typed one word aftr the other so as 2 fully let off my steam tts boiling inside me..

i wanna make a difference...

i wanna make a change...

as of 2ml...

i wanna b a brand new me...

but i have 2 finish wadever im doin til the end of dis month first..

start November...

i wanna DO THE THINGS I WAN!!!!!

tt is 2 say...

I DUN CARE IF WHICH AUNTY/ WHICH UNCLE'S FREN NID A PART-TIMER...

i wanna do the kind of part tym job tt i prefer n like okay???!!!

for goodness sake..

for the past few months...

ive been living my life of somebody's..

im not living it for my ownself..

which is why..

studying in SIM is my own choice...

and i noe i wont regret...

and im so thankful tt my parents finally let me in 4 once..

2 decide on my future n stop forcing me 2 do

wadever part tym job offers tt comes in the way

juz so i can save some money...

and im so gonna go on a diet!!!

coz months in office job= gain extra 2-3 kgs...

well well...

ive gotta go for now...

one more vid 2 watch b4 i go slp 4 work the nxt day!!!

tata~

2008-09-08T21:21:00.002+08:00

Is it dangerous?

didnt go 2 work 2day, took mc...

slept til arnd 3plus in e afternoon...

went 2 see e doc wif my dad arnd 6plus..

and all e way til now...

i didnt eat anything..

and i dun feel hungry at all..

or shud i say...

i dun feel lyk eating at all?

im not sure of the reason but, i dun have the urge 2 eat..

even for ytd...

went out 2 eat lunch at Ajisen...

but i didt finish my bowl of ramen..

den aftr tt, i didnt eat e whole day le..

im not sure if its coz i dun have the mood 2 eat at all..

or juz simply not hungry..

wadever it is..

i tink im having problems having proper meals..

yes, i noe its unhealthy...

but its not as if i want rite...

haiz...

i dare not ask for more anymore..

charlene= no life, no ambition, no goals, no dream...

keep wondering...

wad is life lyk after death??

wad is death itself lyk??

................................................................................

was reading a fren's blog about frenships being so vulnerable..

and i do agree tt, even if its a simple gesture can mean alot..

by showing 'appreciation' 2 ppl around you..

and forgiv those tt choose not 2 involve u...

u still have others...

so gal...

u stil have me=)

tata~

2008-09-04T21:37:00.003+08:00

I must say im realli hardworking...

coz last fri was my last day at UOB..

and i realli miss my colleagues alot alot larh!!!

they were so sweet 2 giv me a surprise when nearing end of work...

to tink tt they didnt say anything 2 me at all e whole day until when ending work tt tym...

they gave me a super nice card...

but i juz foundout where it is bought when i went shoping wif jess juz now..

opps...

vey lazy 2 upload the pics though...

will do it when i feel lyk it bah...

im realli lucky 2 have met such nice colleagues except 'HER'..

(those of u hu read my blog, ive once blog abt her.. but i deleted tt enty le..)

anw anw, back 2 me saying im hardworking..

the point is...

after my last day of work le,

i immediately work anthr part tym on Mon...

so, as of 2ml, its my 1st wk of my new temp job le..

no rest, no slack...

juz hardcore working...

will be gg 4 a briefing nxt wk on a course offered at SIM...

if interested, i will be gg 4 it...

im so shagged frm all the working..

i tink im deprived of my slacking tym sia...

and my new workplace is so near yet so far frm my old working place..

if im lucky, i might bump into my ex colleagues...

haiz...

im facing the computer more than i face my own mum's face sia...

............................................................

Recently, ive have this thought in my mind...

there are some people hu are born 2 let ppl envy..

and there are some others born 2 envy others..

Charlene= born 2 envy others...

not tt im being pessimistic..

but i tink, im someone hu cant stand certain tings easily...

and when i do... its more than juz pure envy...

more lyk... jealous?

humans indeed...

will ppl even be jealous of me?

nvr in my whole life did ppl comment tt they envy me..

onli me going around commenting how i "envy"(am jealous) of someone..

hahaha... funny... but true...

hmm... maybe my tym juz hasnt come yet??

or maybe ppl do envy me juz tt im unaware??

see, even i go around telling ppl how i envy my own siblings..

and then every nite when chit chatting wif me sis,

she told me hu n hu lyk her... hu n hu gave her tings...

and hu n hu asked for her no...

lyk.. WTH~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!

so pissed...

so my pure envy turns 2 pure jealousy...

its difficult 2 not be sad you know..

upon hearing tings lyk tt..

and my sis can stil be frustrated over tt person hu wants 2 be her fren,

or tt person hu wants her no...

and.. and...

WADEVER!!!!!

whew~

life is nvr fair 2 any particular someone..

am i realli tt lousy???

haiz...

y does some ppl hu behaves so bitchy can be so popular?

y does my sis hu has such foul temper n wicked mouth be so in favor???

y does some ppl hu dun lyk talking(being cool) be the centre of attraction??

y does some ppl hu can make frens so easily have no boyfren/galfren at all???

See...

Life is...

never fair 2 any particular someone!!!!

kk, shall stop here..

the more i type, the more i dun wanna stop,

the more angry i become.......................

think, people; is life fair 2 u???

u reap wad u sow??

think again...

2008-08-25T23:07:00.006+08:00

有时候我难过生气

你总有办法逗我开心

依然清晰回忆里那些曾经有笑有泪的光阴

我们的生命先后顺序在同个温室里

也是存在在这个世界唯一的唯一

未来的每一步一脚印

踏着彼此梦想前进

未来的每一步一脚印

相知相惜相依为命

在我未来生命之旅

要和你同手同脚同走下去。。。

2008-08-19T22:09:00.005+08:00

The once familiar person i noe inside me is drifting away...
and i juz freaking hate myself for becoming someone i dun even noe...
is it realli true that things n people do change?

As the clock is ticking the seconds away...
Things, are never the same anymore...
i dun wanna continue wadever ive done b4...
coz i dun wanna become tt kinda person i'd hate...
So, right nw i shall look ahead...

Anw anw...
im starting 2 doubt my working abilities...
haha...
coz im making mistakes the whole day 2day...
and for the 1st tym ever,
one single transaction, i had to re-do it 3 tyms...
goodness...
and for the 1st tym ever,
my nice colleague scolded me =(
she scold me in such a serious way tt im so shocked..
not tt i dunno shes serious at work...
but seriously speaking, i almost cried out...
but den aftr tt, we 'patched' up...
was a major relief 2 me...
i hope 2ml, no misatkes for me...

2008-08-16T16:00:00.003+08:00

Nobody can understand wad each n every other is going thru...

Yes, we may not understand n feel the same way as others..

i noe i might have neglected this part,

and some people may feel this way..

but im also goin thru something tt wad others cant understand...

So, i guess...

its fair... right??!

I juz didn't noe that...

Frenships can realli be so brittle afterall...

2008-08-09T15:48:00.003+08:00

i dunno wad 2 say...

y are 'we' humans, so good at pretending??

pretending tt we care...

pretending tt we wanna share...

pretendng to be nice...

pretending, pretending, pretending...

Human natural instinct??

i do not noe..

sometimes i hate myself..

hate myself for pretending tt im okay..

hate myself tt i can accept certain fact...

hate myself tt when i say "i can understand".

when actually i dun understand at all..

hate myself for being nice 2 ppl whom i can complain abt 2 other ppl..

then again, its not my style 2 scold ppl..

its not my style 2 embarrass or hurt ppl straight at their faces..

and i dun have the ability 2 argue back..

and im sure all my frens noe this..

and seriously,

after reading this blog entry..

and u start 2 hate me..

go ahead.. im fine..

since.. recently ive had the feeling of "not needed.."

its national day 2day..

tt explains my confessions..

haiz..

sometimes i feel lyk being a robot..

w/o feelings..

den i dun need 2 pretend..

den i wont hate myself for pretending..

den i will juz shut down when my circuit is out or something..

den i can come back again when someone else fix me up..

no sweat.. no pain..

and its not tt i dun have confidence in myself..

juz tt, when i realised tt im no different frm those i criticized b4..

i feel... horrible 2 a large extend...

Humans...

indeed...

2008-08-06T21:42:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAO CAI!!!

happy birthDay to YOU...

happy bIRTHDAY to you...

happy BIRTHday to yOu...

HaPpY BiRtHdAy To YoU..

may you be happy everyday=)

im tired...

im restless..

i have enuff...

ciaoz~

2008-07-19T18:17:00.005+08:00

i tink....

im going 2 close my blog..

maybe might create a new one..

(xiao cai... im stil waiting...)

anw anw..

talk about 2day...

i woke up at 10 plus in the morning...

its realli unexpected how i can wake up this early..

coz i usually wake up damn late during wkends..

wads more surprising is tt it is a SAT..

to me sat is a slacking day..

and sundays too..

but!

instead of slacking 2day..

i did household cores!!!

before i start doing chores,

i watched dvd..

恶作剧2吻..

its realli funny..

but quite sweet too.

except tt im stil not used 2 so many kissing scenes...

hahaha~

and its aftr so long since i last watched a taiwanese drama le..

my colleague lent it 2 me de..

hehe..

and then aftr tt is the chores le...

i packed my cupboard..

clean my room!!!

and damn piss coz my sis is sleeping when

im busy cleaning..

i sweeped the floor..

clear the cupboard for a space for my sis 2 put her books..

and there she is, sleeping and "tsk, tsk.." me..

wth~

and den i folded all the clothes in our closet coz its in a mess..

den i clean the bookshelves too..

and wiped our mirror..

den i proceed onto the living room..

and sweep the floor..

but im shagged, so i didnt pack the coffee table

where newspapers are still all over..

well, i tink ive done enuff chores for the day..

and oh boy...

its my fave program frm mtv le..

gtg~

a hardworking Charlene 2day!!!

2008-07-02T19:28:00.002+08:00

past status: MIA
recent status: BUSY...
current: NOT AT HOME...

haha..
yup yup...
im not at home now..
and i cant use the internet coz its cut off.. again...
(lyk as if i wanted...)
now at xiao cai house...
she cooked mapo toufu..
haha..
eat le, realli abit numbness in the lips n tongue..
but taste not too bad afterall..
anw anw..
im currently working a temp job at uob...
actually considering their full tym position de..
but i guess, they do not want me afterall..
haiz..
nvm, i will go look for anthr job...
hopefully...
so, as for now..
im trying hard 2 earn some income..
at least can help my parents out..
rite now im facing alot of disappointing situations in life..
yes, i noe there are ups n downs in life..
but im facing more downs now..
life seems so complicating..
and thx xiao cai for trying 2 help me feel 'UP',
by playing jolin's song rite now...
haha...
oh well..
i shall let nature take its course..
will try 2 cheer up=)
for now, gtg~
tts all folks~

p.s xiao cai... can you stop being so nosey in every word u read??

2008-06-09T22:00:00.004+08:00

im in2 the 2nd wk of my uob temp job...

so far, work was fine.. except it comes in bulks everytym...

the people are nice too.. at least, the people around me are..

the working enviroment is so 'office like..'

my desk area is super spacious..

and the view out of my window is 'breath-taking...'

coz i can see the entire sentosa island!!!!!

the toilets are so beautiful...

so poshy wif black n marbles as the theme..

and we have a vending machine tt doesnt require any coins at all!!!

the journey to work is okay..

though i have 2 walk some dist 2 my bus-stop..

e journey 2 my workplace is short..

8.30 start work, i woke up at 7.15..

haha.. coz journey quite short mah..

haiz..

admist all these..

im stil feeling unhappy..

coz i dun tink i liked such a lifestyle..

work til 6pm.. go home eat dinner...

sleep at 11.30pm den wake up early again nxt day..

so 'routine-ny...'

a.k.a no life...

i so wanna go on holiday..

and everyone arnd me is gg!!!

nobody ask me join them =(

and ive got nobody 2 accompany..

mummy onli allow me 2 go if ive at least a fren joining me..

she doesnt wan me 2 be alone in a foreign country..

even though she allow no matter where i go...

and i HAVEN got my pay..

so long le...

tsk!!!

still waiting..

everytym i see someone arnd me get 2 go holiday..

i feel so sorry for myself..

coz i noe my mum will try all means n ways 2 giv me money 2 go..

but i dunwan 2 leave wif guilt..

and i feel tt im sucha let down 2 mummy..

she took care of me so well..

and gave me all tt she could..

but til now im stil so 'un-acomplished..'

have not achieved anything 2 make her happy b4..

wonder if i could at all..

life is juz so unfair..

the same kind of people..

gets a different kind of fate..

and have differet kinds of luck..

and PEOPLE PLS TAKE NOTE..

my mobile is out again..

no money pay hp bills..

can onli receive incoming calls..

so if i didnt reply ur msg..

its coz... i cant..

when can such a problem stop?

why til now.. our family stil faced such a situation???

haiz..

life is indeed...

unfair...

2008-06-02T00:05:00.006+08:00

hey hey..

2ml is the official start of my temp job at a UOB office...

will be doing some administrative stuff i guess..

2day is oso the last day of the kit kat promo job..

am feeling quite beat now..

and 2ml have 2 wake up damn early..

but den again..

my feeling abt 2ml rite now is half excited n half tired as well..

im tired but i cant get 2 slp at all..

oh well...

anw anw..

i tink im juz blogging for the sake of blogging..

so off i go now..

will blog abt my new temp job soon..

tada~

2008-05-28T23:52:00.003+08:00

whew~

busy busy busy...

i tink...

im not a very good fren..

im not a good fren 2 my frens..

coz..

i noe, im so busy recently tt..

i tink ive been neglecting certain tings 2 be done..

and im so sorry for tt..

i dunno wad drives me 2 find so many work at a tym..

not as if i realli liked working..

and oh man! im feeling super miserable rite now..

coz i tink ive failed in many tings..

i realli have quite alot of tings 2 do..

but i cant fulfill each of them at a tym..

i realli realli wanna fulfil all the tings supposed 2 be done..

realli!!!

but time is so limited..

and i cant divide myself up..

causing my motivation 2 do anything at all 2 drop miserably..

haiz haiz..

hardly have tym 4 my parents..

when i come back home, so late le..

bathe den blog awhile..

while my parents go eat supper..

and by e tym they come back, i've have slept le..

den wake up nxt dy 2 work again..

even my wkends are packed..

so so cherish every moment i have wif my loved ones..

lucky ytd still did some crystal puzzle keychain wif mummy..

bought one green apple keychain for her..

and mine is red..

we fixed e tigy 2gthr last nite..

i feel tt..

no matter how tired i am..

i will always make tym for my family..

juz too bad mummy off 2ml..

but i gotta work..

haiz..

and shes feeling quite stressed out at work these days..

and i hardly have tym 2 chat wif her..

and again, i feel tt..

im not a good daughter..

haiz haiz..

caught this super sad lyrics frm a super sad song...

"Even that time...

was not enought..

A single smile...

The last bow...

I love you...

Even if i become weary frm that time..

Even if i become hurt from love...

Even that time..................

was a memory for me...

You're taking your last bow...

...

I love you...

Fly away...

Fly away love...

Fly away...

Fly away love...

The one true love of my life...

Goodbye..."

2008-05-25T19:14:00.004+08:00

took quite a few grad pics during my grad day...

have some pics wif xiao cai n y parents oso..

but i tink the lazy bugs have bite me...

im so lazy 2 upload the pics frm my digi cam...

plus im stil waiting for the other pics on Xue's cam...

anw anw..

since wanshi sent me some, shall upload these for now..

and as of May 23rd, 2008...

Im officially saying ''hi" to the workforce...

Ive got many dreams n ambitions..

my mind keep flashing thru scenes of wad i wanna do..

and there are so many tings i wanna do tt..

im afraid i cant fulfil them at all..

so many ambitions..

so little time..

and hardly any money..

can onli be stuck on this boring life of mine..

kept telling myself..

tt i will get 2 do the tings i love..

i will get 2 go out of Spore n explore..

its onli till then tt i will expand my horizons..

but but..

so many things around me is stopping me..

much as i wanna do the tings i wan..

circumstances tt i cant control...

is controlling me frm wad i wanna do...

everytym i keep tinking back..

even though ive successfully completed my tings..

yet there are still many tings i can do..

but i didnt..

and i juz 'blurr-ly' lead my 20 yrs of life..

wif almost 10 yrs of my life i cant realli recall coz was too young..

and i kept asking myself..

"what exactly do i wan to do in my life..?"

"what exactly i wan 2 accomplish?"

"what exactly do i love doing?"

"when can i realli start fulfilling the tings i so much wanted to?"

"when is the tym i will do smth tt im realli proud of?"

and the onli ting i tink i did successfully is tt..

ive graduated frm poly...

ive graduated frm sec...

ive at least got a PSLE...

and at least had a Diploma...

but wad can and am i gg 2 do wif these certs??

haiz..

ppl say..

when u start 2 tink of so many tings..

when u start 2 wonder here n there..

and when u sigh~

and when u suddenly feel so lost n feel lyk being left alone..

YOU ARE IN AN EMO STATE...

and yup, im emo-ing rite now..

hmm...

i tink i spent abt a quater of my life emo-ing sia..

haha..

haiz..

and its time lyk this tt..

i always tink of the negative traits of myself..

why?? why am i being such an idiot??

being so emo is wasting much of a person's tym..

and im still waiting for the 'right' tym..

when i can realli do smth i can realli reflect back n say:

"ive done something afterall!!!"
and goodness gracious..

im realli such an idiot..

keep losing tings..

handphones...

Mp3s...

wallets...

and losing mp3s is the worst..

coz, no music in my life is realli lyk hell for me...

sometimes...

i start 2 wonder..

when will i lose myself??

Im so afraid tt someday, sometime..

i'll lose smth realli dear n precious..

i hope by then...

i can stil manage 2 blog and reflect abt my dumbness...

well, then..

pics below..

a long-winded entry 2day...

tomorrow onwards, im gg 2 be real busy working..

at least 4 now, i still have work 2 do...

wanshi n me... (we've graduated =p)

frm left: wanshi, me, erm... wanshi's fren (i juz got 2 noe her tt day.. haha..)

till then...

bye~

2008-05-24T01:34:00.003+08:00

so tired...

ive been running a race..

a race against myself n time...

so busy recently..

so many tings 2 do..

never ending work schedules..

im feeling so shagged rite now..

i wanna take some tym off 2 go travel..

i REALLI wanna travel sia!!

to tink i had the chance now but...

for some reason i tink i wont be able 2 make it again..

haiz..

no life sia..

im feeling so miserable rite now.

i wanna take a gd rest..

and have someone do all the work 4 me..

coz im realli so damn tired..

tired of everything..

tired of... my life...

life these days is so hard 2 breathe..

the air in Singapore flow so fast..

plus the sucky weather..

CANT TAKE IT ANY LONGER..

had my graduation 2day..

see so many familiar faces..

and tt familiar place..

i wanna be in such familiar positions..

doing those familiar things..

suddenly...

i miss studying..

suddenly...

i miss going school..

suddenly...

i feel lyk sleeping..

haha..

So, after e graduation ceremony..

took pictures here n there..

shall upload when i have tym..

and i met XIAO GIL- Gilbert..

tt familiar face during LTC and OGL camp...

missed all the fun camp days..

missed the orientation..

missed my freshies..

missed NYP!!!

though i expressed much happiness when school is finally over..

and no more studying life 4 me..

but when i saw so many students in NYP 2day..

i felt lyk crying my heart out..

i so wanna go back 2 where lecturers n tutors take care of our studies..

and not the pile of work wif the long working hours and migre pay,,

haiz haiz haiz..

yet anthr boring entry..

and im real tired le..

gg slp le..

tata~

2008-05-16T01:03:00.002+08:00

Its realli very sad...

im feeling so sad these days..

for those tt lost their lives or loved ones to the earthquake in mainland china..

the news are everywhere on tv..

in almost every news channel..

everytym i see a new discovery or new person saved..

or someone died..

i so feel lyk crying..

its realli very heart wrenching..

haiz..

salute to those live savers hu nvr giv up saving ppl..

and the govt of mainland is realli showing all their concern..

BUT BUT!!!

i tink ppl arnd the world are so engrossed in the earthquake tt..

they start 2 neglect the tsnami in Myanmma!!!

i watched the news juz now..

its alrdy 10 days past the 1st tsunami tt hit there..

but its reported tt in many parts of Myanmma..

dead bodies are everywhere..

not a single military or soul seen trying 2 save those survivals..

survivals are still somewhere out there!!

and the govt is rejecting help frm outside!!!

i cant believe this!

i seriously hope..

the govt quickly do smth abt it..

come on!!!

there are still survivals..

lives are still waiting 2 be helped..

i tink my lil heart cant take such news..

these 2 days everytym b4 i slp..

and when i close my eyes..

i keep tinking of the wreckage..

even though im not there,

i feel sad for those ppl..

and i seriously feel tt im realli fortunate..

if im a rich person..

i will try 2 giv all i can 2 help..

(haha, tink too much...)

anw,

i sincerely hope ppl will go help myanmma as well..

.......................................

whew~

work 2ml..

gtg~

gd nite..

2008-05-11T00:42:00.002+08:00

Out wif Jess again 2 orchard..

went isetan walk arnd n went 2 look 4 melissa at work...

haha, everytym went out wif jess..

end up buy alot of tings..

mostly..

F.O.O.D..

haha

we bought alot of food sia..

let me see..

a strawberry omlette/ crepe..

Strawberry creme sandwitch..

we r so in love wif strawberry!!!

we oso bought sushi,

a mango vanilla ice-cream,

3 mini mochi cheese bread,

and i sampled quite a number of fried seafood when we r walkin arnd..

haha...

but i did buy a packet back home..

i didnt juz sampled freely okay..

anw anw, the point is..

my appetite is getting weirder..

previously i had such a small appetite..

ate a lil full le..

but recently..

my appetite become bigger le..

siao liao siao liao...

gotta go drink lots of tea for easy digestion..

so can digest all my food faster..

haiz haiz..

anw anw..

im in quite an emo status the past few days..

fortunately i had shopping therapy wif jess 2day..

im realli wondering..

whether a person realli can change over time..

why will a person change?

why cant a person always be hu he/she is and was?

and sometimes it keeps me wondering..

can i always be hu i am in all circumstances?

izzit becoz changes take place all the time?

if i didnt change at all, will i still be able to cope wif the surrounding?

and when im worrying abt these things..

the same tings are not the same anymore, as time changes..

izzit becoz our surroundings keep changing..?

izzit becoz people are changing..?

izzit becoz everyone n everything is ever changing..?

or izzit becoz..

i never want 2 change at all..?

2008-05-05T00:57:00.002+08:00

went out wif jess 2day..

bought lots of stuff..

went tampines see see look look..

den shop around..

aftr tt went expo coz got lots of sales gg on..

den went metro expo sales find my mum..

2day her b'day celebration..

but something bad happened 2 me..

haiz..

sometimes its fate tt something will happen 2 you..

no matter how u wanna avoid..

it will still happen eventually..

and there is no 2nd chance..

sad sad sad...

aftr tt my whole day is like so miserable lor..

i went home n had problems wif my bladder..

keep gg 2 the toilet..

den aftr tt i feel sharp pain on my stomach..

mum says im too heaty....

so, its true tt when 1 bad ting happen...

a 2nd n 3rd will come..

but on the brighter note..

my mummy oso says, when u lose smth valuable, u'll gain smth valuable aftr tt..

i dunno if its true.. but i hope it will come true..

haiz..
a random boring entry 2day..

my entry could be more exciting de..

but im too sad 2 say anything le..

well then,

gotta go...

nite~

2008-05-04T01:27:00.002+08:00

busy busy schedule...

for the past 2 wks or so..

is all abt work, work, work..

Mon-thurs school sales...

fri n sat sell kit kat at isetan scotts..

busy.. but meaningful..

especially when i see the figure in my atm increase..

haha..

and i muz thank meli alot ALOT!

coz both jobs is thru her de..

hehe..

and xiao cai gave me dbsk's 'T' album le!!!

yay~

and and.. Meli gave me dbsk 'O' concert book!!!

double yayness~

and aftr a busy work schedule, i finally have abt 4 days of rest til nxt fri..

im so gonna watch my dvd, listen 2 dbsk's new songs..

and read their concert book!!!

woohoo~

not 2 4get how happy i was when i went out wif shiting, Chinleng n WS..

miss those gals..

plus we had an enjoyable day out during labour day..

haha..

my hous warming party is cuming..

its on the 17th MAY!!!

i will confirm e details nearer the date..

oh man, im feeling all the love..

and im a happy happy girl..

2ml will meet dearie jess..

den will go find my mum..

den go back celebrate mummy's birthday..

hey hey...

Mummy is anthr yr older le..

4* le leh..

haha..

till then folks..

tata~

2008-04-18T18:34:00.002+08:00

The 'HERO' of my life...

Yoongwoong Jaejoong\ yungwong Jejung...

unbeatable charm...

unbeatable smile...

kk, random entry i noe...
cant have enuff of him..

cant wait for my T album...
jingyi, can juz giv me n not onli at the house warming?

coz i cant wait tt long sia...

hahaha~ i wan............................................................................

2008-04-18T00:08:00.008+08:00

i saw this frenship poem from a newspaper...

and i wanna dedicate this 2 all my lovely frens...

you noe hu u are...

"i'd rather get drenched in the rain wif u peeps, than 2 stay comfy at home alone.."

"i'd rather quarrell wif u peeps all the times, than 2 remain silent wif strangers sometimes.."

"i'd rather spend a tiring tym studying wif u peeps, than 2 slack alone at home..."

(P.S i made up the last sentence myself coz i cant recall the entire poem le..)

to all my lovelis...

i miss u peeps alot!!!

and i love u peeps alot!!

to me, frens are frens..

there's no difference btw pri fren, sec fren, poly fren, etc...

(eh... actually for convenience is got category lah.. im juz plainly saying..)

i tink we shud realli cherish every single soul we came across wif in our lives..

coz, its nvr juz a coincedence or by accident tt we meet someone...

frens are special someone(s) tt does not stay for a while.. but for a lifetime.

So...

good day 2 u all...

gd nite~

tata~

(P.S.S my house is nothing compared 2 jess de larh... haha...)

2008-04-14T00:56:00.004+08:00

i cant get 2 slp yet SO....

SNEAK PEAK!!!!

Hehe..

i noe there's no news of my new house yet..

the reason is coz my new house is realli messy still..

we're still saving up 2 buy cupboards for our stuff coz our stuff is still in boxes on the floors..

but but..

thruout my whole house..

my living room is done n can say the neatest...

so so... decided 2 show u the pic (p.s shall onli show u a few pics though...)

my living room=)

my mum loves green so its a greeny view frm my living rm...

my corridor is cream malt color...

additions to my living room...

notice how my mum so into feng shui...

the feng shui small tree, the fortune toad underneath...

and and, the (i tink very ex) crystal frm someone...

My room sharing wif my sis is orange n cream color..

my bro room is green n white...

but of coz... to keep u guys in suspense... shall not show anymore pics..

though most of u didnt cum my house yet..

at least i prepared some 'virtual tour' pic of my house...

hehe, till then...

bye bye~

do tag...

2008-04-10T23:05:00.002+08:00

have this sudden mixed feelings about my life..

at 1 point, i tel myself tt..

for now im not gg 2 find any job yet..

im gonna enjoy as much as i can b4 finding a real stable job..

will prob do it aftr the grad ceremony of nyp..

so in the meantime, where got temp part tym, i go work...

but now..

seeing how my peers n frens start 2 found a steady job..

or having a steady path in life..

i tink, im realli lag behind by alot..

so, im starting 2 feel scared le..

im starting 2 doubt whether wad i do is correct le..

and im starting 2 doubt my abilities and thinking..

izzit realli wrong 4 me to slack so long?

but its onli abt a month... mah...

haiz..

i dunno larh..

sometimes i cant understand my parents..

one moment, my mum told me tt she wont rush me..

afterall, she will not force me 2 faster settle down on a steady job which might not be wad i realli liked..

but nxt moment, she will complain tt i wasting my tym at home..

and when shes in a foul mood, she'll even question me when i gg find job..

den again..

i told her how i feel..

she consoled me tt, ok she will not force me..

but i tink she will say me again de lor..

in bad days..

having bad mood..

sometimes, a person's life is lyk a book..

different stages will fill in different chapters..

i might not noe wad the ending will be..

but i noe tt, i will try my best 2 make it similar the way i wanted..

except before that...

wad shud i write at this current chapter???

dear diary,

this is juz a random boring entry..

signing off~

-Charlene-

2008-04-10T03:12:00.005+08:00

slept at arnd 9.50pm but i juz woke up..
and now i couldnt realli get back 2 sleep..
been sleeping real 'early' these days..
wondering whether izzit the new house tt im not used to..
prob im not used 2 my new roon n new bed..
even though i love my bed frame so much..
its a black bed frame made of wood..
the kind no legs de, its the whole frame touch the floor de..
erm... understand wad i mean ma?
haha.. suan le..
u'll all get 2 see it sometime..
anw anw..
ive got this sudden urge 2 go jogging rite now..
but then..
when i saw my neighborhood downstairs frm my living rm window..
its so... quiet..
haha..
construction stuff n soil everywhere..
empty void decks..
empty basketball court..
empty playground..
onli filled wif street lights..
so, better giv up tt thought..
Sigh~ maybe i go watch tv, den tired le den go slp again..
oh!!!
and someone predicted tt i will have 1 son n i will marry late..
hmm..
im tinking wad name shud i name my son..
hehe.. tink so far le..
any nice boy names can tel me as reference??
kk, i tink too much..
well then, a boring, random entry.. (coz im juz finding smth 2 blog)
till then... tata~

2008-04-04T00:14:00.004+08:00

-peep! peep!-

PLS TAKE NOTE!!

hey frens, i moved house le..

so there's a change of address n my home tel..

so those hu have my current ones, pls delete it okie..

so long didnt update le...

coz no internet connection until now..

so finally...

anw anw, there's stil tons of tings 2 pack coz boxes n cartons are everywhere..

so, a house warming is onli expected in mid Apr..

but once the tym comes, all those whom i noe are welcome!!!

anw anw..

blog abit abt events tt happened few days back..

went out wif Jess 2 shop at marina square..

we bought a frenship necklace n 'couple' rings..

well, i've got the pics but im lazy 2 upload..

can check out jess's blog..

haha, aftr tt we ate at KFC n chatted away..

den off to meet Shan n Ting..

watched Spiderwick cronicles..

its not too bad a movie..

the boy is so cute..

hehe..

and i had a great tym wif shan n ting..

and i so love the presents tt they gave me..

anw anw..

I WANNA WATCH SKY OF LOVE...

恋空。。。

i noe its a nice show..

i noe its a must watch..

so PPL, stop telling me "you shud watch, you shud watch.."

LIKE DUH~ i wanna, but stil waiting for my sis 2 fix a date wif me sia..

TSK~

so for now..

i realised i haven upload any JJ pics le..

here goes..

2008-03-26T00:42:00.002+08:00

Begone emo status..

haha..

im feeling kinda tired rite now..

but but..

i've thought thru the whole ting..

its no use venting my fustrations on my parents..

i tink..

maybe i shud realli welcome my 20th years old..

i dunno wad i will face in life in the near future..

perhaps i will still be as short (p.s i doubt i'll grow anymore..)

perhaps i will still be as childish (p.s i tink tt cant change..)

perhaps i will remain jobless till lyk 24 yrs old or older.. (p.s i scared i will..)

perhaps i will juz mit a nice n rich boyfren hu wants 2 marry me.. (p.s yea, my wishful tinking..)

perhaps i will remain single thruout.. (p.s its not a bad ting rite?? at least no ppl 2 tie me down..)

there will be many tings i will face in life..

these tings are ever so unpreditable..

and maybe even..

few years down the road..

when i went 4 a gathering..

frens will start 2 tell me where they work..

and i'll still be a part tymer, job hopper..

and maybe anthr few years, anthr gathering..

frens will start 2 tell me hu n hu is getting engaged..

den maybe anthr few years anthr gathering..

frens tell me they married le..

den anthr gathering,

frens tell me which sch their kids go to...

and woala... im still single n doesnt even have a stable job..

might seem lyk im imagining.. but..

wad if it turns out lidat 4 me??

haha..

i tink, i tink too much..

so bottomline is..

i tink for now..

im gonna do wadever tings i like..

but at the moment,

i will settle my new house stuff first..

once move in le..

and realli settled, i will start 2 find job n den do tings i realli liked..

to those hu showed lots concerns..

i realli thank you all alot alot!!!

have a happy n smooth year ahead too~

and...

my dad is getting more n more 'irritating'..

oops..

not good 2 badmouth but still..

IM ALRDY A BIG GAL..

STOP TREATING ME LYK A LIL KID N ORDER ME ARND!!!!!!!

whew~

k box on thurs and fri...

ciaoz~~

2008-03-24T00:10:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday to me...

a moment ago..

i almost screw up my bday celebration at my grandma hous..

i can swear tt this is my 1st tym crying during one..

all along, ive celebrated so many birthdays at my grandma hous..

none of it is as worse as 2day..

not bcos im touched or wad..

but bcos im angry..

im angry at my parents..

and for the 1st tym..

im angry for my new house!!!

its bcos of my new house tt..

everyone is paying attention 2 it..

esp my dad hu was so worked up abt the entire "move house" ting..

tt i feel tt they actually overlooked smth impt..

and turning 20 is smth realli freaky..

i tink i have phobia 4 it..

coz i cried lyk dunno how many tyms b4 this day finally arrived..

to share wif everyone..

its realli scary 2 tink..

when u reach 20..

ure no longer a kid..

responsibilities n duties comes in..

once u made a mistake..

it can cause a scar..

where forgiveness is realli difficult..

and it is where u have 2 be fully responsible for almost everything besides urself..

tinking of tis made me feel so freaked out..

and as i grew older, bday celebrations at my grandma hous..

becomes simpler n simpler..

the feeling is so different..

even if time were 2 revert back..

things are no longer the same anymore..

and i resented my parents 4 overlooking tis feeling of mine 2day..

which is why..

i weeped while i was preparing sandwitches 2 serve the guests.. (my relatives..)

b4 tt..

we were stil out buying some stuff 4 the new house..

and we got back so late..

i hardly have enuff tym 2 prepare the sandwitches i promised i'll do..

and i literally started preparing the snacks when all my cousins n relatives came..

i invited them 2 come at 7 for the food..

but at 7.30pm, im stil preparing the sandwitches..

some adults may say im too sensitive..

but..

they realli didnt noe how i realli feel..

i dont need any presents..

i juz need ppl 2 acknowledge tt im turing older..

for asking this..

am i realli tt selfish?

i dunno why am i behaving so strangely these days..

i tried 2 find ppl 2 talk 2..

but those tt i msg..

they are busy..

i tink, God is testing me..

but, he has successfully made me feel so miserable n helpless..

i wanted 2 go out 2ml..

realli stay out of house til late at nite..

but..

everyone else i msg..

is busy..

i guess its juzmy bad luck..

and dun worry peeps, im not resenting u all..

im juz scared.. tts y..

i guess tts y sometimes,

when a kid realli grows older..

birthdays...

are becoming less important afterall..

im gonna induldge myself in my youtube 4 now..

ciaoz~

2008-03-22T00:15:00.003+08:00

A realli random n boring entry 2day..

if ure not interested in boring stuff..

u can choose not 2 read..

Alot of people encourages me..

and told me 2 look on the bright side of life..

people say..

at the end of a long dark tunnel..

there will always be an exit..

where u will see the lights again..

for every human being,

their lives will start to diverge at certain age..

that's when u'll meet lots of obstacles..

barriers to life..

but when will i see my light at the exit?

maybe my tunnel is realli long..

tears are no longer enough 2 help me shed some burden..

why cant i have a better life??

when can i allow my parents 2 live a better life?

why izzit tt coz im the eldest, i have 2 let??

why izzit tt coz im the eldest, i have 2 sacrifice tings tt i like..

for tings tt i dun like..

juz 2 make others happy??

why izzit tt i have 2 bear the biggest burden frm the family..

coz im the eldest??

why cant my parents have good luck?

why cant good luck befall on us??

why izzit tt i can never accomplish smth great?

why izzit tt i always complain?

why izzit tt im so irritating?

why do i always behave so emo-ly?

why do lives in drama always appear 2 be better than real life?

why izzit people cant go thru wadever it is in dramas?

why izzit tt people always dun understand me tt well even though they claim they do?

why izzit tt i always fail 2 express how i feel and cause a problem instead?

why izzit tt i always dun mean wad i said but i stil said it out?

why izzit tt conversations wif my mum always end up a quarrel?

why izzit tt i always didnt get wad i wanted coz i nvr had good luck?

why izzit tt even though i always complain abt my family members yet i dun realli wan 2 badmouth them?

why izzit tt even though i hated backstabbers, but sometimes i tend 2 do so too??

and i realli hate myself 2 be in the same actegory as them..

W.H.Y??

why izzit tt 2day's entry is an extreme case??

wads happening 2 me....??

like i said, its a boring n random entry..

for those hu read till this far..

i thank you for tt..

haiz..

ciaoz~

2008-03-17T22:11:00.002+08:00

part time working in progress..

shagged till i dunno wad 2 say..

stupid flu..

freaking runny nose..

Zzz..

my birthday is cuming..

but..

i dunno wad shud i do..

or rather, i dunno wad i wanna do..

haiz..

maybe spend my birthday wif my family as usual again bah..

nth special~

ciaoz~

2008-03-13T23:37:00.002+08:00

hey hey..

i shall update wad we did on the 11th Mar..

last tues we went Sentosa..

the weather is juz not on our side..

its raining almost the entire day..

but but..

we did not let the rain affect our precious time there..

and i was surprised tt they celebrated my bday for me too..

coz they told me we are gg 2 celebrate Ju's bday..

and so i thought..

but xue n jess arrived late..

and so, yiyi, ju, wen n i went early 2 book a nice spot first..

but when e two arrived, they brought a cake n said its for me n Ju..

Crystal jade fruit cake.. yummy~

i love those yummy colorful fruits..

and we each brought some food..

i prepared konnyaku jelly n egg sandwiches..

there's sausages (by xue), rice n chicken wings (by ah wen),

fishballs n sotong balls (by jess), erm..

i 4got wad yiyi n Ju brought le..

haha, bad memory..

sorry abt tt..

we had alot of fun at Sentosa even though i met wif some 'prob'..

dun ask me, i wont tell..

haha..

and gals, plssssssss dun say!!! love ya all k..

hehe..

den we left sentosa and into a photo taking frenzy..

i had 2 admit, im so bad at posing..

well, guess tts y im not a poser!!!

aha~

den Ju left us n it was dinner at Superdogs, Vivo..

aftr which, the few of us left had a great tym playing 'donkey- truth/dare'

and its a series of heart-to-heart talk..

and secrets divuldged one by one..

and i truly had the most unforgettable day..

the rain cant stop us frm having our fun..

seriously..

if onli time could stop and be like this..

forever..

well then, pics are all at jess's blog..

i shall pose some up shud i have e tym..

till then..

ciaoz~

2008-03-13T00:40:00.002+08:00

bored bored..

recently my mind is all on our new house!!!

and and i so wanted 2 have the dream house tt ive always wanted..

but then..

coz of financial restraints, we can onli make the best use out of cheaper alternatives..

tings have not been going well for my family these days..

hard times for my mum n dad.

tough times, especially when renovating a new house need lots of money..

which we dont have..

and the money im saving for my japan trip..

i guess in time 2 cum, i have 2 contribute to my parents as well.

and im realli afraid tt i have 2 giv up my wish 2 go japan le..

haiz haiz..

why izzit tt when i have the tym,i dun have the money..

and when im savinge money and i have the tym..

my new house came at e wrong timing..

and my money saved is not for my japan trip..

rite now im realli lost..

i realli nid a human organiser 2 help me manage my schedule n plans n decisions..

if possible, manage my life for me too..

life is..

so tiring..

can i be selfish for once??

tt is, can i have my birthday wishes to come true??

do you tink God permits??

well, i doubt so..

well then..

ive realli gotta tink hard wad 2 do..

till then.. ciaoz~

and dun worry, im alrite..

(in case ppl tink i nid 2 talk.. haha.. xiao cai, im realli ok u noe..

im quite shock why u will tink i nid 2 talk sia.. hehe.. but thx anw..)

2008-03-10T23:39:00.002+08:00

haiz haiz..

im having dis weird feeling rite now..

yes! Ms Ho Charlene..

she's got no ambitions...

she doesnt noe wad she wanna do..

to work???

to study uni??

and even if she decide 2 wait..

and yet having the desire to study in uni..

she's not doing anything...

NOTHING AT ALL..

juz plain waiting..

haiz haiz..

(*back to reality*)

yup..

im facing such a situation rite now..

shud i decide to work..

i shud have sent out my resumes alrdy..

but yet i didnt..

shud i decide 2 further my studies..

i shud have sent in my application b4 the datelines..

but yet i didnt do so..

so so so!

im halfway thru No-where..

can someone please help me??

i feel lyk playing and resting until im satisfied..

coz i tink i deserve it..

prob after July den i go find a job??

is tt a bad decision?

haiz!! i dunno larh!!!

in the mean time..

im brushing up my jap a lil..

hopefully if i realli cant find a job..

i shall go be a tour guide..

kk..

anyone hu noes wad 2 do..

or wad shud i do..

pls help me okie?

till then..

ciaoz~

2008-03-08T23:10:00.003+08:00

vroom vroom..

looks lyk my engine didnt realli stop 2 rest after all exams..

im working part tym these days..

tired.. but fun..

looking at all those lil kids trying 2 fork out wadever money they have..

juz 2 buy smth frm us..

and dropping all those coins..

how cute..

and i so love the timing..

frm 8am-3pm..

yes, tiring 2 have 2 wake up so early..

but work ends very fast..

but still..

i finally can rest awhile while waiting 4 the nxt assignment..

for the past few days..

its busy yet fun..

go work in e morning..

meet frens go movie aftr work..

den evening go new hous 2 paint my walls..

and im so excited 2 move in alrdy..

the movies i watched within these few days..

L Change The World.. (*L so cute!!!)

Prescepolis (erm... not my tyme of movie..)

Jumper.. (* Jaden is Hot!!! oh, i lyk tt griffin guy too!)

The Leap Years (*The most romantic and touching show ive seen... and Wong Lilin is super

uber hot can!!!

jealous-)

and more 2 come..

and im gg sentosa nxt few days too..

gonna meet my OO6 darlings..

and gg out wif my lovelies meli n xiao cai soon too..

busy schedules lining up..

and i realli gg broke soon..

wondering if i can realli save enuff for my trip 2 japan..

haiz haiz..

the most i go borrow frm ah long..

hahaha..

k bah..

my birthday's cuming..

and i keep askin my mum how am i gonna meet it..

haiz..

SO OLD LE!!!

anw anw..

i so wanna get 东方神起's T album sia..

wait til i receive my pay den see how first..

kk, ciaoz~